一个人的呢喃 ...

I've Moved !!

2009-11-07T04:48:00.003+08:00

WOOPS !! So sorry that, I've moved my blog again ~
Here's the new link:

A Humble Beginning ...

ok ! Do drop by and say hi to me. Kindly relink me also lar hehehe ~

Happy holiday !! ^^

Ayuniza <3

2009-11-02T19:35:00.002+08:00

This was previously the wallpaper that I'm using, cin cai mix from images grabbed from internet, ignoring all the copyright thing lol ~ I guess it look quite nice, at least remind me of studying when I'm starring at my laptop ....

And now, it becomes much more nicer as .....

Yeah ha ~ I'm over with PCI final exam just now, and....

I feeeel good ~

A little bit sad, I made mistake for my Boolean part (I didn't far king notice it was actually an inverse one !! =.= ) and 8 marks gone for my last part, which is a total of 13 marks in final, 7.5% !! Officially saying good bye to A already ... Only hoping a A- now, or worse come to worse, B+ ... Please don't further drop liaw .. T.T ... Some funny incident during the exam, Ayuniza (my FYP lecturer) was one of the invigilator !! and so ngam, she watched over my column lol !!

According to thefreedictionary.com:

Invigilator
someone who watches examination candidates to prevent cheating.

She din allow me to cheat lar of course, but unexpectedly (shh , don't tell other people har ), when she pass by my side, she stop there and check my paper for me !! I was like, almost ROFL !! and she even pointed out some careless mistake I made (shhh, really don't tell other people... >.<'' ) ... I regain my 2 marks thanks to her (1% only larrr) ... But actually I think doesn't matter lar, coz from what I notice, another malay lady (also invigilator) like saw she pointing out my mistake and just smile oni ~ Guess being cute looking is an advantage afterall ^^ ... and Min wei, who sat behind me also saw lor ~ mou ban fat, they not as cute as me, can only jealous me liaw ~ Ayuniza, I LOVE U MAX larrr ~ <3

Anyway, gonna be "half free" after Data Com exam tomorrow ... Need stay back for a few days as Ayuniza <3 and Fairuz requested me to write my FYP in conference paper format and don't know they want to send where... I know is those 废 (fai) things lar .... But if this can make them happy, then I do lor... At least in return, they seems guaranteed my project I an A already .. Guess they gonna help me a lot in my project II also ba ....

And now... better take a nap sin ~

Good luck for the final battle tomorrow !!

Ju "Chong" Fan

2009-11-01T01:20:00.004+08:00

Deng ... I study PCI til my heart feel damn so imba now...
I thought allocating 2 days would be enough for my PCI,
so I still spent some time to do my FYP paper (as required by En.Fairuz) ..
But now... I know I sure die already ...
I just remember that, front chapters (Jagadeesh's part) got many formula,
and final exam like no give one wor? (according to part year)
Hai lat lor ... Then, Jagadeesh's last chapter and Chong's last chapter,
are like total stranger for me...
Frankly, I don't remember a thing in both last chapters lor ...
HAI LAT TIL MAX LARRR !!

Anyway, WHAT MAKE ME SO IMBA IS : MY LOW CARRY MARKS !!
and it's like, wturfff , I lost so many damn marks in Chong's part..
(Jagadessh in charge 25% , Chong in charge 25%)
I got around, 22/25 for Jagadeesh part, which I'm kinda satisfy,
but Chong's part..... sigh ...
I lost too many marks in my test 2,
it wasn't tough, the calculation ... But again the farking thoery inside,
sigh... over liaw ... don't want say liaw ....
Just wish my final can cover me back ...

So, from the title, you might think that, I want to talk about ...

Ju "Chong" Fan?

Actually, NO.

Instead, I want to talk about, this fan "chong" ..

I don't like him since the very first class of PCI with him.
I don't like his hair style.

He think he is this meh?
I don't like his spec as well.
don't like the way he talk,
don't like the way he teaching,
don't like his personality,
don't like his joke which is not funny at all,

don't like the way he give test to both section,
although some of you might be fine with it ..

don't like the way he makes my carry mark so low,
ok, maybe this one because I din prepare well for the test also,
but don't care, his fault also !

The only good thing about him,
was I found Yap Boon Kar's facebook when I was searching for his photo,
moment ago.
Well, he facebook also, but I didn't want to add him, at all.

Ok, few things I pray:
1. Book Kar jie, faster approve my facebook larrr <3
2. PCI final .... 顺顺利利 ahhhh !!!
3. DATA Com final ... easy easy ahh !!
4. FYP paper... faster gao tim ahhh !!

Ok lar, that's it.

p.s. : Wei going anywhere after final anot ? ke ke ke ke ke ....

那些小孩教我的事

2009-10-29T23:37:00.006+08:00

怎么开始呢，umm ......
发生了点小事情，有点心淡的感觉 ...
可能因为最近去了 job interview，真的觉得，
自己越来越靠近社会了。
这样也好，就算身边有什么自私自利、尔虞我诈，
似乎也见怪不怪了...
算了吧，当作自己长大了，看透了，
或许这样，自己的心里才会好过一点....

不禁，又开始怀念起在 PASCA 教书的那段日子。
孩子们很好，很纯真，
喜欢、不喜欢都摆在脸上。
而我很肯定，他们绝对都超喜欢我的。 =)
看着看着照片，很多回忆就这样浮现出来，
所以随意挑了几位学生，
和大家介绍介绍咯。
好吧，我承认是有点无聊而写的，
不想认识这些小朋友的就往右上角按 X 吧 ~
下面都在介绍他们罢了 ...

昨天介绍了阿镔（方炯镔）的新专辑，
今天介绍另外一位阿斌（施文斌 - Wilson）给大家认识 !!

如果说 Henry 是我最疼的学生，
阿斌应该可以说是和我最合得来的学生。
他其实超顽皮的，骂又不怕，打又不怕。
可是比起其他老师，他还算蛮听我的话的.. *自豪！*
可能我就和顽皮的学生特别投缘 ...
不过，他真的很喜欢跟我 “谈条件”。
所以，我的薪水花了好大半请他喝汽水、吃雪糕...
可是他真的还蛮聪明的啦，
我记得上次考试他几乎让大家（包括他妈妈）大跌眼镜地考得好。
不枉我皮包里面那些阵亡的钞票 ~ T.T
不过不过，后来听说，我没有在那边教过后，他成绩变差咯 ~
后来还转到别的安亲班了。
只能说，老板器重我，不无道理啊 ~~ 哈哈哈哈哈 ^^

不过有时候，他真的就...... 有点难控制。
大哥，我的 PSP 还在包包里面，小心点 T.T ...

好吧，只能说，他听话的时候，真的很可爱 ^^
幸好我和他 26 岁的年轻妈妈还留有联络，
所以.... ke ke ke ke ke ke ...
拜托，在想什么？
我是指，每年 11 月 21号，我都会 sms 去祝他生日快乐啦 !! =.=

好了，下一个 .. =)
如果说，Henry 是我最疼的学生，
Wilson 是我最合得来的学生，
那么，嘉敏应该是我最喜欢的学生了吧 ~

拜托，我不是那位以故巨星，别想歪了..
喜欢她主要还是因为她又聪明，又听话，
适当的时候会乖乖坐好，和她开玩笑的时候又伶牙俐齿，
所以应该算班上 top 容易教的学生。 =)
后来听说，她父亲在经济上面遇到了点问题，
所以全家都搬来 KL 了，也就失去联络了。
无论如何，还是希望她能够继续学业咯～
再苦不能苦孩子，再穷不能穷教育嘛 ..

如果说，Henry 是我最疼的学生，
Wilson 是我最合得来的学生，
嘉敏我最喜欢的学生，
那么，Karen 应该是我最念念不忘的学生咯。

Karen 很顽皮。真的，我没见过这么皮的女生。
而她和 Jasmine 也是好朋友。
不知道为什么，她很可爱，可是却很没有大人缘。
至少，另外的老师好像真的不太喜欢她似的，
可是我觉得她也是个聪明伶俐的小可人儿。
后来听说也是因为老师的关系（不是我！那时我没教了），
转去别的安亲班了..
不过听我在那个安亲班工作的朋友（Ser Hui）说，
她还记得 Mr.Leo 哦 <3
超感动哈哈 ...
Btw, 我那位朋友也是从 PASCA 跳槽去别的安亲班的，哈哈 ...

好了，如果说....
我再用刚才的方式来开始这个段落，
你们可能真的会以为我江郎才尽了。
哈哈，再说说这个，
最像我小时候的学生 - Alwin ！

外貌上还好，不过他的脾气真的就和我像了个十足十。
小时候，我在家里就是一股牛脾气，
俨然就是家中的小霸王。
而 Alwin 真的也就是这样。
怎么说他呢... ?
其实，相安无事的时候，他还是个蛮温驯的家伙，
虽然成绩一般般，又有点懒惰，
可是叫他做功课他还是会慢慢地做的。
可是，有时候，只要有人惹到他，不管同学、或老师，
就恐.................怖.............了................！！！！！
他真的就像头牛一样坐在那边生闷气，
然后根本是没有人敢在那个时候靠近他的。
告诉你，他 1 年级的时候，我还见识过，
他真的就发脾气然后把桌子上的全部东西扫下地。
1 年级，7 岁而已耶 ...
不过后来，在藤鞭的威胁下，还是乖乖地把东西拾起来啦....
Deepavali 去 Ms.Kanaga 家的时候，
刚好碰到了他和他的妈妈....
3 年级了，长大超快的！整个也长高了很多....
重要的是，2 年不见，他也还记得我！
哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 ~

接下来，owh? 是漂亮的粉红色？
那就要介绍，隔壁班和我感情还不错的，
4 朵小花啦～

他们是比较高年级的，所以是 Ms.Keong 和 Ms.Lily 负责的，
不过有时候我还会和他们聊聊的～
左边起是 Kai Xin, Hui Xian, Suki 和 Jia Hui ...
Kai Xin 是 Alwin 的姐姐，其实和我不太熟，哈哈 ~
Hui Xian, Suki 和 Jia Hui 在之前的一次假期旅行中，
是我队里面的，所以也比较熟。
Suki 超可爱的，我算过了，等她18 岁的时候，
我也才 28 岁，没问题的哈哈哈哈！
开个玩笑，我相信她不用 18 岁就能够交到小男友咯 ~
Jia Hui 则是让我又爱又恨。
我认识她其实是有个 incident 的。
话说，我和 Ms.Kanaga 都得在他们放学回来的时候，
帮低年级的同学拿书包上楼（超重的）..
而有一次，这家伙就早放学了，碰到我一边在楼梯口玩电话，
一边和 Ms.Kanaga 聊天。
她想借我电话来玩，可是一旁的 Ms.Kanaga 摇头，
示意我她得马上上楼。我就不借咯。
结果，她竟然整个扑上来要抢我的电话。
我就说：“好了 hor ，你再来我就喊非礼了！”
她竟然就先喊了非礼！！
我..... 的..... 天 !!!!
在楼梯口喊耶，楼上的 Ms.Keong 和 Ms.Lily 当然就听得一清二楚啦，
马上就跑出来看。
幸好，那时候 Ms.Kanaga 也在场，马上帮我澄清了。
吓到我，差点跳到黄河也洗不清了。
不过，这次也是一个教训，
知道有时候小朋友会没有分寸，所以什么事情还是小心为上。

有爱，当然就有恨，
不过我是老师，当然不会表现出来啦~
心里还是有些不喜欢的学生的，
刚好发现了这张哈哈.....

好吧，里面有 3 个人，其实我只不喜欢两个罢了。
最右边，白色衣服的叫捷思，很安静，很难沟通，
不过，还算是听话的。另外两个我就不敢恭维了。
中间那位，比较瘦的，叫甘梓宜。
平时，可能很乖，可是我不知道为什么，她很喜欢和父亲打小报告。
例如，假期的时候，我看他们把功课做完了，
就和他们玩点团康，可能学个绕口令或 tongue twister 之类的，
然后他父亲竟然就来和我老板投诉，
说他女儿说，我们老师没有帮她复习！！ =.=
真是冤枉到..... 假期耶，孩子们当然要玩乐啦...
而且 tongue twister 也不是什么不好的东西嘛...
Peter Piper picked a pack of pickled peppers ，
1 年级如果学会了这个超 diao 的吧？
（不过结果好像也只有班上最聪明的 Iris 学会罢了）
幸好，老板也明白事理，告诉我说她父亲常常来闹的，
她知道问题不是出在我们老师。
另外一位在我 “不喜欢” 的 list 的，就是 Tan Shih Yun 咯。
她... 真的，我不知道怎么说...
她几乎有本事让我们 3 个老师（那时候 Ms.Chua 还在）都想，
把她丢给隔壁班的 Ms.Keong 算了。
她不是不聪明，也不是懒，可是很不专心。
超 keh poh 的，什么事都会跑离座位，去八卦一下。
而且，她的人，很不诚实。
我只记得，那时候班上有人的东西不见了，说是她拿的，
可是她却说是那个人借给她的。
最后 Ms.Keong 出面处理，闹到家长那里去，她才承认。
后来真的乖了一阵子，可是不久后又故态复萌，
又发生类似的事情。

总之，还是 Henry 是最听我话的学生啦 ~~ ^^

坏人情歌：遗憾

2009-10-29T01:31:00.005+08:00

在考完了 Power E 过后，其实我整个人就完全放松了。
虽然不觉得自己和 A 有缘，可是 B+ 应该跑不掉了，
那样就好。
反正 Control II 是 A 定了，project 也应该不会 “走水”，
PCI 和 data com 最烂可以一科 B，一科 B+，
下个 sem 的 RM300 应该可以手到擒来 .... *奸笑中*

而且今天的 interview 还算成功，至少把我自己的意愿表达清楚了，
置于过后怎样安排，就让公司决定吧...
怎样都好，我也尽力了。
真要被安排在 KL 工作，也就只好多兼几分差了吧 ~
唉，未来，看起来好遥远，其实，还真近 ...

今天回来后大睡一场，吃饱后又睡，我真是猪到不行。
等下一定要读书了，不然可能连 B 都没有了.. >.<''
下载了阿镔的新专辑，很好听哦 ~

坏人情歌：遗憾
方炯镔

专辑曲目：

01.棋子【吉他圣手”董运昌”编曲/弹奏】
02.天黑黑
03.暗示(方炯鑌V.S.弦子)【继”不得不爱”后2009最动人的男女对唱K歌】
04.遗憾【八大戏剧台强档好戏”来不及的爱”片头曲】
05.不必在乎我是谁
06.曖昧
07.胆小鬼【草食男V.S.肉食女之恋爱营养学网路爱情偶像剧插曲】
08.剪爱
09.猜心
10.泪海

很喜欢阿镔一点沧桑的声音，听起来很舒服，
而很多歌都是翻唱的，听着听着，还真的是琅琅上口...
重要的是，他都唱在我的 key 耶，哈哈哈哈...
下次唱 K 还真是必点哈哈哈哈 .....
里面我最喜欢的是翻唱许美静的 “遗憾” ...
歌词很感人哦，从以前就很爱这首歌了...
还有还有，许茹芸的 “泪海” 也唱得不错。
最失望的是 “曖昧”，我还以为是杨承琳的说....
结果.... 我不知道是谁的歌 ~~ 哈哈哈哈 ....

奇怪阿镔以前唱梁静茹的 “可惜不是你” 也很好听的说，
怎么没放进专辑里呢？
不管不管，下张放进去啦啦啦啦啦 ~~~~~~

好啦，读书了，
祝各位好运咯 ~

End

2009-10-25T01:58:00.004+08:00

I've read about a modern Cinderella story tonight.
From hell to heaven, and from heaven to hell.
Sweetness, sadness, furious, utterly mixed.
Unexpectedly plain ending,
but enough to impress me.

I felt myself grew up yesterday night,
and now only I know,
how childish was I 24 hours ago.

8 letters
3 words
1 meaning

For the first time in my life, I've said it.
But, this does not means a happy ending ahead.

IT, is not about conquering,
but the devotion and the secure feeling that someone able to give.

and I'm not that someone...

I have been negative enough all these while,
but it's time for me to stand up.

Wipe my tears, and I'm going on with my life.

The end of a story,
might be the beginning for another story.

All the best for all my friends having final.

Let's move on together !!

活着,，原来很痛苦 ...

2009-10-24T03:22:00.003+08:00

Presentation 还算顺利，觉得自己花了太多时间去准备了，
虽然很久没有这么专业性质的 presentation ，
还是给我用我最不擅长的 transparencies，
不过还真的不该质疑自己这方面的能力。
练习几次都在 15 分钟左右，不过今天竟然一鼓作气在 10 分钟搞定。
朋友说我像在 RAP ，不过既然 examiner 听得清楚，像什么也不要紧。
Project 虽然不至于问鼎 COE 最佳，可是要拿个 A 应该不难。

回来之后大睡了一觉，之后又是连续的战斗。
Power E 是死定的了，今天才开始总复习。
真的不是有兴趣的一科，希望能够在最后拼个 B+ 回来吧。
Control 2 的 A 似乎已经是囊中物，可是还是得多多练习，
这两天把之前的 tutorial 从新做了一次，好像很多都忘记了。

星期三还要去 Powertek HQ interview.
Business Development Department 有个空缺，想说，
我和另外一个朋友，在毕业后可以去那边做。
其实我真的没有很想做 HQ ，因为在 KL 消费太高了。
而且姐夫说在 power plant 工作比较学得到东西。
如果只是纯说话的 interview 而言，我觉得我自己比起另外一个朋友，
应该略占上风。
死定了，我该练习扮个口吃还是什么的吗？

真的很累...
一个星期里面，搞完了 2 个 project ，2 个 assignment ，1 个 presentation ，
还没有休息，就又要开始考 final 了。
身边也发生了一些事情。
应该说，快发生什么事情了。可是，我真的没有能力处理。
我尽力了，真的。
我不知道能够做什么，我很累，
很想今晚睡了就永远不醒来了。
现在，考好 final 就算了吧。

3 年多，快 4 年了。
我自问，长大了很多。
这几年，我经历了以前总和也没有经历过的事情。
时间，记录了回忆，
而这些回忆，会伴随着我一辈子.....

温柔 - 五月天

走在风中今天阳光　突然好温柔
天的温柔地的温柔　像你抱着我
然后发现你的改变　孤单的今后
如果冷　该怎么　渡过

天边风光身边的我　都不在你眼中
你的眼中藏着什么　我从来都不懂
没有关系你的世界　就让你拥有
不打扰　是我的　温柔

不知道不明了不想要为什么　我的心
明明是想靠近　却孤单到黎明
那爱情的绮丽　总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

不知不觉不情不愿　又到巷子口
我没有哭也没有笑　因为这是梦
没有预兆没有理由　你真的有说过
如果有　就让你自由

我给你自由　我给你自由
我给你全部全部全部　全部自由
喔…
这是我的温柔　这是我的温柔
让你立刻自由　让你立刻的自由

如果有　就让你
自由
这是我的温柔　这是我的
温柔
就让你自由

再让自己哭一次，一次就好 ..
这次一定要是最后一次。

书迷

2009-10-17T02:55:00.003+08:00

我是某书店的常客。
虽然有点夸张，可是我相信我家里的丛书，不值一千，也有八百了。
虽然不是书香世家，我家里的成员其实都还蛮爱看书的。
可能就是感染了这样的习惯，买的书越来越多，看的也越来越多。

比较小的时候，看的是爸爸收藏多年的武侠小说。
什么《天龙剑》、《血影神功》等希奇古怪的，我都照单全收。
后来，又和朋友借了些金庸的武侠小说，我才知道，
怎么去分辨，小说的好，或不好。
“飞雪连天射白鹿，笑书神侠倚碧鸳” 14 本，
除了《书剑恩仇录》，我几乎都看了一遍。
虽然最喜欢的，还是《神雕侠侣》里面的杨过和小龙女，
但是论小说架构和内容，无疑《天龙八部》还是其中我觉得最优的。

上了中学，武侠小说年代过得七七八八了，
开始迷上了倪匡先生的科幻小说。
这个兴趣一直延续到上了大学后才慢慢退烧，
几乎把《卫斯理系列》给收集全了，还有一些原振侠和罗开的。
口袋书价格很低，3 本才差不多 RM10 ，
不过有些真的很难买得到。
最后集不全的，也只好在网路上阅读，
虽然我自己本身超不喜欢对着电脑荧幕看书的。没 feel 嘛 ...

同时期，也是网路小说猖獗的时候。
痞子蔡（蔡智恒) 的《第一次亲密接触》爆红后，
印刷版的网路小说如雨后春笋般冒出来。
刚开始还不太会挑，只拿些出名的作家，如痞子蔡、藤井树等，
后来看久了，自己也大概知道那些作家的作品适合自己。
除了痞子蔡、藤井树之外，
像敷米浆、九把刀、蝴蝶的作品都很适合我。
橘子是位很好的作家，可惜，太感性的文章却又让我感到沉闷。
其他，还有很多，可能只出过几本，甚至只有一本小说的作家，
可是他们也写了很有优秀的作品。
有时候可能会觉得，网路小说很浅白，也不太有内容的样子。
其实，对我而言，阅读就是一种娱乐。
我看了这些小说，我开心，那为什么我还要强迫自己去看琼瑶？

不过，我个人其实也蛮喜欢琼瑶的，虽然只看过了本《青青河边草》。
还有，一些老一辈(好吧，我分类为 “其他” 的作家）的作家，
他们的作品也绝对是阅读的首选。
个人最喜欢的是张小娴的《面包树系列》，很有感觉。
还有，席娟的《两小无闲猜》和狼的一系列都很不错，满搞笑的说。
其他包括了刘墉、欧阳林、吴若权、吴淡如等，
我觉得他们都是很有智慧的作家。
张曼娟很出名，可惜就我印象中看过了她的书还蛮沉闷的说。
亦舒的书我家里也有很多，不过，不太适合我。

除了情情爱爱，很多著名的译版书都看过了，
像《哈利波特》、《达文西密码》、《天使与魔鬼》等...
这些书其实都很好看，可惜，
感性的我还是比较容易对爱情故事产生共鸣。
还有，在 industrial training 时期看完了两部以盗墓为题材的小说。
《鬼吹灯》个人觉得不错看。作者天下霸唱应该是中国人，
所以用字、说话方面都有点和我们平时用的不太一样。
可能有些部分会有点沉闷，可是总体来说是套很不错的小说。
《盗墓笔记》感觉上就有点在抄袭《鬼吹灯》了，
虽然我也分不清谁先谁后。
不过既然我先阅读了《鬼吹灯》，就当作它是前者吧。

还有很多小说，不过要列出来可能就太多了，
而且其中良莠不齐，又是跟着我自己的品位选出的，
毕竟有些主观。
或许，迟些有空，会一点一点地介绍些个人看过，
觉得不错的书给各位咯 ~

敬请期待 !

Random updates

2009-10-16T00:16:00.005+08:00

Finally, I'm done with all the test 2, but I'm don't feel a slight relax at all. There are still a few things to be done, before the final battle.

i) Control System II Project
ii) Power Electronics Project
iii) Power Electronics Assignment
iv) PCI Assignment
v) FYP 1 Presentation

Yup, I still consider myself as very busy now. Among all these tasks, I feel most uncomfortable with the PCI assignment. The reason is that ass lecturer can give us the assignment earlier, as it require knowledge from front chapter only, but he drag until the second last week only gave us the assignment. Not to mention previously how unfair is he that he actually make a much tougher test for our section compare to his own section. I really speechless about this, but nothing much that I can do. I am just a student, and he is Dr.Chong. So, let it be. The only thing I can do is just complain him here, and that's it.

Apart from last semester, I almost unprepared for the final exam this time. I think the time really too pack already this semester so until the last week I still got so many things to do. Gladly I've revised all the behind chapters for test 2 this week (and yup, I had 3 tests 2 this week). Guess I can still cope with it. Not hoping a Dean but as long as it is above 3.33 then I'm fine with it already.

Kinda attracted with lomography recently. My 3rd sis actually has a FishEye2 but frankly that doesn't impressed me that much, until I saw some random photo in forums that really pull me in. Darn, I got addicted just by looking at it. I like the "feel" of the photo, and am really impressed with how they match 2 different photo stack together and get some real nice effect. And, and, I never know that, a WHITE FISH EYE2 can be so cute looking !!

Woops, Cute MAX rite? The price is moderate also, aroound RM250 - 300 .. It is really very suitable for a beginner in photography like me. At first this evening I wanted to go and buy it already, just that too many things to do so end up giving up. Maybe next Monday if I can have some free time, else will be after final exam already. Really wish to sharpen my skill before going to Taiwan on 14th Nov... Wish to bring my FishEye2 there (if I have bought 1 by then) ...

I'm really hoping for a long holiday after final exam, although the holiday is real short. 3 weeks ? It's like, wtf man? I'm already spending half of it in Taiwan, and maybe another few days in Sabah with family, and another 2 days 1 night at Taman Negara with uni friends (unsure yet lol) ... And I'm like left with ... less than a week in Muar....

Sigh...

Anyway, just face with the flooding assignment/project/presentation first bah ~ Good luck all...

跟着感觉走

2009-10-06T01:55:00.004+08:00

很喜欢 Sum Yee Mun 的 msn 放的一句话:

喜欢一个人，是一种感觉。
不喜欢一个人，却是事实。

虽然没有押运，读起来蛮绕口的，
可是，还算是不错的一句话。

面对事实，我还是选择，
跟着感觉走 ...

哭沙

2009-10-03T02:31:00.007+08:00

常常看到这句：

爱像手里的沙，捉得越紧，越是挣扎流下 ....

原来，有一首歌曲，就叫做《指间沙》。

《指间沙》
原唱 by 蓝雨

爱象是握在手里的沙
越是抓紧越想挣扎
慢慢顺着指尖往下滑
阳光照着闪亮的伤疤

爱象是握在手里的沙
该收该放没人回答
近了摩擦远了又牵挂
怎样才不会让泪流下

不如就此作罢从此看爱天涯
放了爱的手，开了爱的牢枷

让风吹干脸颊吹散了长头发
看地上的沙，埋葬爱的尴尬

爱象是握在手里的沙
该收该放没人回答
近了摩擦远了又牵挂
怎样才不会让泪流下

不如就此作罢从此看爱天涯
放了爱的手，开了爱的牢枷

让风吹干脸颊吹散了长头发
看地上的沙，埋葬爱的尴尬

不如就此告别退出爱的悬崖
放了你的手，开了爱的篱笆

让风吹开了眉吹走过往图画
我笑着，听海在说话

让风吹开了眉吹走过往图画
我笑着，听海在说话
我笑着，听海在说话

歌词写得还 OK ，可是曲风就不是我能接受的了。

最近真的很烦，遇到了些烦恼。
我真的不知道该怎么办，却连个可以倾诉的人也没有...
下一步该做些什么？还是什么都不要做？
是我想太多，庸人自扰罢了？
我真的很害怕...
我真的真的真的很害怕...
到底，还能怎么办？

我很少对我自己做过的事情后悔。
这次，我真的很后悔。
我，毕竟太鲁莽了...

听到了经典的那首《哭沙》，我又哭了...

《哭沙》
原唱 by 黄莺莺

你是我最苦澀的等待　讓我歡喜又害怕未來
你最愛說你是一顆塵埃　偶而會惡作劇的飄進我眼裡
寧願我哭泣　不讓我愛你　你就真的像塵埃消失在風裡

你是我最痛苦的抉擇　為何你從不放棄漂泊
海對你是那麼難分難捨　你總是帶回滿口袋的沙給我
難得來看我　卻又離開我　讓那手中瀉落的沙像淚水流

風吹來的沙落　在悲傷的眼裡　誰都看出我在等你
風吹來的沙　堆積在心裡　是誰也擦不去的痕跡

風吹來的沙　穿過所有的記憶　誰都知道我在想你
風吹來的沙　冥冥在哭泣　難道早就預言了分離

你来过了；你走了 ...

2009-10-01T03:18:00.003+08:00

生命就好像路边的公厕一样。

一些人来过了，留下一些什么，然后就走了。
什么也不带走...

忽然间，很想念一些，生命中的过客。
可能，他们还在；也可能已经走了...

小学同学、小学班导杜清慧老师、
中学同学、华文学会导师戴玉彬老师、梁任敏老师、
圣约翰救伤队的队友、辩论队的战友、
补习班的学生：宇森、文斌、嘉敏、
大学同学、以前的室友们、
还有，很重要的朋友。

其中有些人来过，在我生命中留下了辉煌，
然后走了；
有些还在，不过也要走了。

当然，以后，还是会有人走进我的生命，
然后离开。
大家都一样，来过，走了...

到最后
我，还是自己一个，在这里 ...

P.S. : 我想通了。我会好好过。
再见了，年少轻狂，那段我永远也不会忘记的日子 .....

没有天使

2009-09-29T18:31:00.007+08:00

再也没有天使了 ...

我告诉自己，

不哭 ... 不哭 ...

（转载）寂寞的时候可以考虑流泪

[ 畫家 : TOMOYOSHI SAKAMOTO ]

寂寞時流下的淚水, 並非一無是處,

寂寞時流下的淚水, 可以清洗眼睛, 使眼睛明亮 .

我以前是認得出天使的 ,

比方說 :

在我寂寞時 ,

他們特別來垂憐我的那幾次 .

我以前也認得出惡魔的 ,

比方說 :

在我寂寞時 ,

他們特別來踐踏我的那幾次 .

後來我的眼力卻不行了,

因為我寂寞時 , 不願再流淚了.

我強顏歡笑, 逞強忍住淚水 .

你知道的,

這種事就是這樣子 :

你寂寞卻不肯流淚 , 你的眼睛就會黯淡,

你的眼睛黯淡 , 你就再也分不清誰是天使誰是惡魔了.

於是我寂寞的時候 , 漸漸變得不幸 :

我以為是天使來垂憐我了 ,

我屈膝等待 ,

等到的卻是踐踏.....

我以為是惡魔來踐踏我了,

我強悍的推拒 ,

卻推開了垂憐 .....

所以 ,你知道的 :

也許寂寞的時候 ,

還是流淚吧 .

本文引用自: 寂寞的话可以考虑流泪

I don't like ...

2009-09-27T00:51:00.009+08:00

Phew, I've typed some really rude post,
but have no intention to post it here.
I just make it, a summary thing:

I don't like people to work, not according to my plan,
when they should.

I didn't say I'm angry,
doesn't means that I was not angry.
It's just that, I know,
anger cannot solve any problem,
especially those that have happened,
and that's it.
If I say something out face to face,
only end up embarrassing for those people.
I say this in my blog,
because I don't want put this anger in my heart.
No offense to, whoever think he/she/they/it is related.

Alright, that's as far as I go.
Should leave unhappy thing aside now,
and start looking forward,
my BBQ tomorrow night ~
la la la ~

My Final Year Project

2009-09-15T22:04:00.003+08:00

Since I've so many friends introducing their final year project in their blog, maybe it's time for me to do so as well. Here's my final year project's title:

Distributed Wireless Optical Communication for Humanitarian Assistance in Disasters

So, to begin the introduction, I guess it's better for me to start with "wireless optical communication". I guess everyone there should be familiar enough with "fiber optic" thing right? Even right now the internet you're using, is using fiber optic to transmit. Similarly, wireless optical communications, it's just another kind of optical signal transmission, except for it's using an energy beam that is collimated and transmit through free space instead of being guided through a glass fiber cable. Technically, you can say it as, a line-of-sight (LOS) technology that transmit a modulated beam of visible light through the atmostphere for broadband communiation.

Advantages of Wireless Optical Communication
Compare to radio communication, optical communication is no doubt having more advantages. It requires no RF spectrum licensing! In Malaysia, the assignment of spectrum bands and the granting of license to operate a specific spectrum are treated separately by the Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission. License free indicates that there will be lesser troubles for the authorization in using specific spectrum band during aid for disasters. Optical communication is immune to radio frequency interference or jamming due to the narrow laser beam, which is incredible important for the rescue works in disaster area as massive communications happen during the rescue in disaster area and this effectively prevent whatever possible dysfunction of the communication system. Optical communication provides a much higher capacity (multi G-bit bandwidth) which is able to incrase the data transfer rate as well.

While compare to normal Fiber-optic communications, wireless optical communication is also having the upper hand. The installation is much more cost effetive as there is no extra cost of laying fiber cable which saved up to 80% of installation cost! As for disaster area, wireless communication proves it's efficiency as its transceiver is portable and quickly deployed. It saved up the time required for cable installation and is able to work in every corner of the disaster area.

Disadvatages of Wireless Optical Communication
And yes, despite having so many advantages, it does have some limitation afterall - poor weather condition. The quality of Wireless optical signal will be degreaded in poor weather condition due to poor visibility and also other factors. For example fog, vapor composed of water droplets are able to modify light characteristics. In the process of absorption, scattering and reflection, it can harass the passage of light passing through thus distort the transmitting signal.

There are also some bla bla bla factors, which I'm kinda lazy to further elaborate, since my project will mainly focus on the attenuation caused by undesired weather only ~

Methodology
The project is divided into two parts : Final Year Project I (FYP1) and Final Year Project II (FYP2).

In FYP 1, what I will be doing is the literature review on the title, which is like gathering some info from internet and journals, pick out some sentence here and there, then squizze all into my progress report I (my lecturer say I did a good litereature review worr.... He don't know all modified one.... shh.. don't tell him). I will have to design a transceiver model which will be use for performance simulation using OptiSystem software later on (also settled already, thanks to En.Fairuz). Besides, I'll need to do some study on the relationship between different weather condition and the signal's attenuation (This is what I've been working with for last 2 weeks and ... so far so good, I've got whatever I suppose to have kekekke .... ) . Then next, I will have to get some real climate datas from Malaysia Meteorological Department (ya, cannot bluff one >.<) and use the data to find the attenuation in different weather condition, and lastly use the attenuation value to simulate for BER (bit error rate) performance and Eye diagram. Thus, I can study the performance of Wireless Optical signal transmission under different weather condition.

In FYP 2 pulak, I'll mostly modify some simulation parameters (in logic values lar), which can (or say which should will) improve the performance of Wireless Optical signal transmission. Then .... Haven't think of it yet, maybe will try to increase the bandwidth of transmission or whatever. In short is to make it as canggih as possible lar ~ Nothing tough yet, as it's all using software simulation kakaka ~

So, above are some summary on my Final Year Project lar ~ I wun't mind sending my proposal and progress report I for those who're intereted kekekeke ~

*I doubt anyone can understand this o not ??

寂寞？

2009-09-15T21:39:00.002+08:00

朋友都说，我是一个很情绪化的人，超容易就 emo 的。

我不否认。

不过，比起 “情绪化”，

我更喜欢将这样的特质，翻译成 “多愁善感” ....

我很喜欢在脑里，想一些有的没的的事情，

套句小 S 的话：我在和我的心灵对话。

这几天，我和 “它” (心灵哦）聊到了 “寂寞”。

到底，什么是寂寞？

就像小时候
寂寞就是没有朋友

当我们长大了
寂寞的程度比当时更严重

我有一个疑问
如果我们深爱一个人
我们能承受
必须分离的那一天吗？

而分离是生命中的一部分
有可能我们深爱一个人
而不害怕失去她吗？

同时我也在想
有可能我们活着
却不爱任何一个人吗？

这就是我所谓的寂寞

“它” 是这么说的。

虽然，这可能只是曾经从不知哪里看过的短文章，

“它” 却牢牢地记下了。

我答：

如果真的爱一个人
怎能不害怕分离？

而我们必须接受现实

于是，长大了，
寂寞就是没有了爱，比没有朋友更寂寞
即使短暂也会刻骨铭心

比起我，这个世界上有太多人，幸运太多了。

你们拥有了这么多彼此的爱，

就算有时候，因为太爱彼此，而伤害了你们自己，

但我相信，时间已久，

你们都会了解，没有什么叫作 “太多的爱” ...

太多的爱，即使会让你们犯错，

但，比起未曾为爱作过任何事情好太多了，不是吗？

生命总是给予我们很多机会重新开始。

在错误中学习了之后，你们都还有机会

希望你们把握它，更加关心彼此 ....

Pitiful me

2009-09-10T04:58:00.005+08:00

I've wrote a long post , but, it wouldn't be appropriate to post it here.

Too many vulgar, too many scolding, and too many this and that ..

I'm sure,

you won't want to see me writing these sorts of things here again.

I will changed, as I promised.

Just a short one here, telling what happen.

It's 5 am now, I slept at 4 , and woke now.

Not wanting it , of course !

Or maybe, just I myself, am too sensitive to noise.

I don't know, no one to blame.

This requires self-conscious, being considerate...

whatever I say here, won't change a thing.

So just a little complain here, to my readers.

Please sayang sayang, the pitiful me.

祝福

2009-09-08T19:36:00.004+08:00

刚刚在 Sze Chee 的 blog 看到了一个蛮有趣的 link 。

Will You Marry Me

一个叫 KK 的人希望在 2010 年 1 月 27 日之前得到 100 万个祝福，

然后向他的女朋友求婚！

哇靠，超浪漫的！

大家不妨去看看，顺便留个言祝福祝福人家吧！

Just saw an interesting link from Sze Chee 的 blog ...

Will You Marry Me

A guy named KK hopes to get 1 million of wishes before 27 Jan 2010,

as he is going to propose to his girlfriend!

Let's just click in and leave our bless for them ^^

Some random photos ..

2009-09-08T15:12:00.007+08:00

Suddenly, found many photos in my laptop .....
Some were left out during my posting ,
or some were totally forgotten .....

Anyhow, many are very interesting photos lor....
So.... Gonna post some random photos here ... =)

End of last semester after final exam of "Random Process" ...
Shy Lin was so stress.... and she ate a lot :P

Min was kinda emo though ....

In fact, everyone was kinda getting weird .....
Especially when 2 guy with gf singing love song to each other ...
And another single guy sitting in between ....
Complicated, huh? >.<''
I sure look damn pro with DSLR ...
Neh, saw "Ah Xian" behind me ?

Really missed C&I Department a lot...
They were like my family back then...
Especially En.Hamdan,
who always brought me to TG1 help him to do thing...
And allow me to curi tulang there :P

Ahh ha !! Just kidding .... I very rajin during industrial training one ahh...
p.s. : Was actually at the same time sms-ing with friend when took this .....

This was our makan-makan session before we end our industrial training...
Sad that Hamdan was sick and not able to join us =(
From left : Su Ling, Mustari, Rafizan(boss), Wl, Hasan, Tey, Liza, Faizal
p.s. : The food suck MAX !!

Then, was py's birthday, right after I back from Redang ....
I was damn brown hor ......
Anyway, this is at "Tit Ban Tao Fu" at Kajang there..
I simply love their "Tit Ban Tao Fu" (sizzling tao fu) !!
Had the dinner before my birthday with Ming, Min and their cousin there too !
p.s. : I can accept the bitter melon soup, but not bitter melon !!

Another celebration @ GreenBox !!
The cake damn nice lar.... I bought one ... ^^

And is really kinda addicted to sing k this sem ..
Maybe just too stress .... Need release a lot lol ....
And these are some of our new kaki : Keith, Keat and Hee Guan !!
p.s. : Mou ban fat, except for fixed kaki min and py, always need find new ppl >.<''

H1N1 ATTACKED UNITEN !! Yeap...
Why Shy Lin like look very painful leh? >.<''
And Min was... real "kwa zheong" lo ... lol ....
We all agreed that, he look much more like 阮经天(Ethan Ruan) this way ...
Perhaps with a sunglass or what more ~
p.s. : Keith say look like 吴彦祖(Daniel Wu) wor....

And this is just recent .... Rey made some super delicious cheese ~~kuih~~ cake ...
It look real nice, taste damn nice also !!
But my housemate say ma ma dei only ... I think not bad lar...
I like the baked part outside (correct me if I'm wrong) ... very...very....
ai ya.. duno how to describe lar... Just ask him make one for you if wanna taste !

and neh ... this is the cheese ~~kuih~~ cake's producer, Rey Choi !!
contact him here : 012-3318***
hehe... this better ask me personally ^^

K lar... lots more.... shall keep for next time =)

我的 RO

2009-09-06T16:21:00.004+08:00

这个 sem 最大的错误就是玩了 RO (Ragnarok Online) 吧 ...
虽然同时间戒了 dota ，可是时间就是永远不够用 ....
不过，也没关系啦 .... 反正我的成绩都这样不上不下 .....
不要少过 3.3 ，应该就可以了吧 .....

RO 是我玩过最久，最多 server ，也是最喜欢的 MMORPG ...
虽然现在已经很很不流行了，可是我还是蛮喜欢的，
毕竟也没有多少 MMORPG 可以让我玩得那么顺手了不是吗？
现在玩的是 DESTINA RO，一个 10x/10x/10x 的 private server ...

因为容易玩的关系，我选择了 hunter ....
简单来说，就是射箭的那种啦 ....
这是我还 noob noob 的样子...

不过，红色超丑的... 很快我就换了classic 的黑色 ...
超可爱的吧？这两位，是我的 buffer 和 vender 咯 ...
*buffer = 负责给于我辅助技能的 character
*vender = 帮我卖东西的 character

其实，只要不是太沉迷，偶尔玩玩是不错的。
往好的方面看，我认识了很多不同国家的 player 呢！
久而久之就成了自己的 “固定战友” ，其实很不错呢....
喜欢无聊的时候就晃上去和他们聊聊....
有时候甚至可以聊上整个小时呢！
毕竟，彼此都不认识，现实中也不会有交集，
有什么秘密，彼此分享是最好不过的啦 ~

虽然是一起团练 .. 偶尔也会 ..
全军覆没的嘛 ~

终于是一个独当一面的 sniper 了 ....
最近少玩了很多... 因为实在是不想让对我有期望的朋友失望了...
我永远也忘不了一句：

“伟康，你的成绩已经是我们一 gang 朋友里面最差的了，
去读书咯 ... ”

这句话对以前的我，真的是当头棒喝，虽然我到很久以后，
才真的学会开始努力。
不过，相信我，努力的刘伟康已经回来了！

这次 power E 考了 28/40 ，不尽理想....
不过，老师给了个 make up test ... 而我也决定拿了 ....
其实, 也没什么信心, 纯粹是一种 “不想输” 的心理。

好吧，该读书了，加油咯！

Timeless 《可啦思刻》

2009-09-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

其实，也没什么好写的。纯粹介绍方大同的新专辑 - Timeless 《可啦思刻》

特别的是，这次他翻唱了很多很有名的歌曲，
包括了 Westlife 也翻唱过的《Nothing's Gonna Change My Love for You》，
JJ 和张惠妹的《记得》，还有王菲的《红豆》....
其中最喜欢《红豆》，很有很有他自己的味道。

红豆方大同

还没好好的感受

雪花绽放的气候

我们一起颤抖

会更明白什么是温柔

还没跟你牵著手

走过荒芜的沙丘

可能从此以後学会珍惜

天长和地久

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆

熬成缠绵的伤口

然後一起分享

会更明白相思的哀愁

还没好好的感受

醒著亲吻的温柔

可能在我左右

你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

尤其是第二节第二段的歌词，特喜欢的。
以前也听过这首歌，可是可能我比较不喜欢王菲吧，
所以也没有觉得特别有感觉....
看来，好的歌也取决于好的歌手哦.....
（不是说王菲不好啦.... 个人喜好 >.< ）

**************************************************************************
考完了上次的 exam spree 后，日子似乎得空得有点发慌。
真不是个好现象...
本来 FYP 出了点问题：Design 不到正确的 circuit !
不过在 En.Fairuz 的鼎力相助下可以说是有惊无险，
总算有个粗略的模型出来了，接下来应该会轻松不少。

每个科目似乎也进入了 “缓和期”，除了一些些的 quiz 和 assignment ，
都没有忙的事情。
要命的是，下个星期 Power E 跑了个 Make up test 出来，
想来是我们成绩太差，所以想搞个 test 帮我们。
可是，如果拿 make up test 的话，之前的成绩就作废了，
不管考得更好，或更烂 ...
夭寿咯，我的 test 成绩是 28/40 ，不上不下，真的超难决定的。
在我 “益友” 的建议下，拼了！
下个礼拜就无缘无故多了个 test 咯 ~

**************************************************************************
周末回家，父母带我们去吃了餐 “团圆饭” ，因为姐姐们都回来了。
去了万里望的家小餐厅，听说蛮有名的，Pak Lah 都去过，
还吃了一盅要 RM88 的佛跳墙。

有鲍鱼哦 =.=
还有，鱼翅，海参，干贝，乌鸡....
说真的，汤头甜得恶心。加上椰子的味道，真的，不是那么好吃。
我觉得，拿来去 Friday's 锯扒好像还更划算。

真是的，好久好久没有吃到好吃的东西了。
有没有人要带我去猎食啊？？

本周 “看起来” 最好吃的美食：

白白嫩嫩都豆腐花啦 ~~~~

热浪

2009-08-26T20:13:00.009+08:00

八月份，去了热浪岛，和一群朋友。

其实，这次召集得有点急促，
几乎就是早上提议，下午决定，隔天订房的那种。
去的朋友也不是我平常混得 gang ，
只是那时候刚好在不久前发生了点事情，
决定跟着他们到岛屿放松放松罢了。

其实在这个时间点去旅行真的不是很恰当，
因为回来过后就得面对连番的考试。
看到其他朋友在努力读书，
自己却去放松度假，这种感觉真的很糟糕。
不过，既来之，则安之，
我还是决定好好地享受了这个 3 天 2 夜的短暂假期。

即将抵达热浪岛，海水也渐渐变得清澈，很期待的说。

终于看到了，传说中，“绿色” 的海水。

住的地方很干净、整齐。以我们还的价格来说，相当划算。

沙滩的沙子都是那种，又细又软的。
虽然有时候踩着沙的感觉满不舒服的，可是真的很漂亮的说。

热浪岛的美，有时候真的是会让人感到窒息的那种美。
湛蓝的天空、碧绿的海水、洁白的沙滩，
环绕着岛中央绿油油的山。
或许，这里真的是我到过马来西亚的最美的地方了吧。

在这里，静静地躺在吊床上，真的是一种享受。
特别，是在夜阑人静时。
徐徐的海风拂过脸颊，不远处的海浪拍打着沙滩。
一辈子有多少机会，能够享受到这样的静谧呢？

当然，年轻有活力的我们，又怎么可能只静静地在那里休息呢？

没错，再一个！

我想，我的电话这时候应该感到很尴尬吧.... =.=''
C905 : *大家怎么都盯着我看 @.@ *

还蛮像的说。
不过，他是 M size ，我是 L size 。

住的地方也有自己的 “浮潜区” ，不过我没有在这里浮潜，
而是真的潜下去了。

全副武装，我准备好咯！
p.s. : 氧气筒超重的 =(

当然啦，我并不是孤军奋战的！

准备 “下海” 咯！

其实，超恐怖的。
我花了很久才克服了心理压力的说。
毕竟，潜到了海底，一个什么不小心，可能就....
幸好，负责带领我的 dive master 经验老到，
不止确保了我的安全，还带我，看了很多东西！
除了一般的珊瑚和鱼，还看到了些怪恶心的海参、
长得像小枕头的海星、还有小鲨鱼和海龟耶！！

海底的世界真的很不一样，很多东西看起来和摸起来差别真的很大。
例如，Nemo （小丑鱼）的 “窝” ，应该是一种它们常藏于的珊瑚一类的东西，
摸起来感觉就像会吸着你的手一样，很特别的！

终于，即将离开的时候，我们在那里留下了足迹。

还有更多的，一些其他什么 ......

看似黄昏，又有谁知道这是旭日东升的时候？
很喜欢这张照片，因为，它和我一样 emo ....
p.s. : 谢谢 Wivian 充当我的模特儿！

或许，太执著于追求，我却连自己真正要的是什么都不知道，
死不放手。

在热浪岛的三天，除了玩乐，我也想了很多。
想起，7 月份的时候，发生的那一些事情。
我说过要改，可是有些东西却戒也戒不掉，对不起。
但是，这样就好。真的，让我，这样就好。

p.s. :
幸福可以很短暂。
对于没有体验过幸福的人来说，一分钟的幸福，也是一种幸福。
我体验过了，一分钟的幸福，就在热浪回来的不久后，
这样，就够了。谢谢 ....

Mid-term break

2009-08-09T18:29:00.011+08:00

Went Genting last weekend ...

Xiao Wei met Zhang Di（张帝）and Cai Qin （蔡琴） there....
Guess she's really lucky =)

Feel like I was just borrowing the RM890 from Uncle Lim...
And is returning him by monthly installment =.=
May, June, July, 3 times go Genting, 3 times also lose money....
Really sad le... Especially this time ...
I was winning a lot in 30 minutes ... Is really lucky that kind ...
Lucky until I got 2 point, banker can get 1 point that kind ....
Lucky until uncles aunties around all want to "dek" me that kind...
But then... play play har... start losing..
And in the end..... Lose liaw liaw =.=
Sigh, better don't go gambling already.... T.T

Lucky we still have some money left after came out from Casino,
so ... yum cha at Starbucks... ^^
Sohai posing session with a scarf ....

Lance : Lan c

Ah JoO : Starbucks, hou hou yam !

I'm cute as usual :P

The cakes and drinks were dissapointing though ...

Wh ordered this Cappucino Tiramisu....
Soft soft one like mousse (not mouse har, mousse ! ) ....
Then .... Don't know how to say lar.... I think SUX max !

As usual, I tried the Blueberry cheese cake there....
Not that bad, but not good either ... Didn't really tasted blueberry...
Also don't have strong cheese's fragrant worrr...
But i think the base is quite well-done ...
They mixed something inside ... Which I can't taste it out ...
I like the base more than the cake lol !!
I think I prefer the one from Coffeebean...

Glad that my Jave Chip didn't dissapoint me =)

Say until cake .... I'm actually kinda... anxious now ...
I still cannot find, any nice cake .. Sigh ...
Especially the last whole month... Everything I ate was like sh*t !

Tried this blueberry cheesecake from "Riche Montana" ...
It's inside South City Plaza ...

The cake look really delicious ...
I prefer baked cheese cake than cream cheese ...

But.... saw that ?
When I cucuk my fork hor.. it just break into small pieces liddat...
Taste also like.... very... "powder-ry" ..
I can't find a word to describe it... but it's definetely SUX also !!

And I ate some cupcakes brought back by my 2nd sis yesterday ...

Kononnya some delicious cup cake nearby her office ... 4 for RM17+ ...
Namanya "+Wondermilk"

I think.... really ma ma dei lo... Nothing special ... xD
In fact, the nicest cake that I had in past few months,
was the Marble cheese from Starbucks that we bought for dad's birthday..

Not looking at my father lar... is the cake....
small small square tat one .... Very nice one lar....
I love the cheese fragrant ...
The cheesy smell is even heavier than Secret Recipe's New York Cheese..

Anyway, for the time being ....
I'm really dissapointed with what I've tasted ...
It's really... such a failure ...
Saw about "Mille Crepe" from my sis's blog macam delicious sangat...
she suggest me to try out Nadeje Patisserie Cafe in Melaka ...
Say their Mille Crepe very famous one ....
So I immediately go cari-cari info lor....
And I found this ....

Image Source : http://jasonmumbles.com/2006/03/all-the-way-from-japan-mille-crepe

A little bit macam 千层糕 liddat hor ... seems very delicious ..
But according to the the blog, Nadeje seems no longer the first choice for Mille Crepe...
One of the co-owner resign and start up a new business in JB ..
Humble Beginnings was the shop's name ..

http://jasonmumbles.com/2007/12/humble-beginnings

JB wor... so far away ....
Maybe next time I can ask Tan da bao back 1 slice for me hehe ...
Currently looking forward any Melaka trip so that I can take chance,
go and try out Nadeje Patisserie Cafe's Mille Crepe 1st....

Okok ... That's it for the cake's update ....

Forgot to mention : It's UNITEN's MID-TERM BREAK now !!
And in fact the break started half day earlier (from thursday noon) due to H1N1...
Kinda nice timing ... hehehe .....
So went for some chiong k session as break celebration .....

Really in bad condition due to the hazy weather ...
Even the specially mixed drinks : Kiwi + apple + "something blue" can't cure me ...

I found that, from certain angle,
Shy Lin look like Cai Shao Fen （蔡少芬) ....

Please zoom in the photo and see how special her contact lens are..
macam zombie wei.... :P

While for Choo Min ... He was in bad condition also, I guess...
Or that's the actual level liaw ? LOL .....
I think he's quite depress recently that we keep kacau him with some lame joke ...
Sorry bro, sometimes we just say the facts mar... hahaha...

So ... That's all for now .... Kinda lazy ....
Going Redang tomorrow night .... but actually not really in a playing mood lol ....
Still worrying the tests after the break ...
Hope I can really enjoy the trip ......

有时候，

一个面包，一杯咖啡，

就可以让我很满足了。

这就是，我的幸福 ......

珍惜身边重要的人

2009-08-04T21:11:00.005+08:00

He's a great guy , perfect I would say.
Never a close friend of him, just those "hi-and-bye" kind, yet,
I can get so worry when he has gone missing,
and sad, real sad when I know he left us.

You're a really great friend.
Rest in peace, Gary.
___________________________________________________________________

他不是一个和我很亲近的朋友，不过当从论坛得知他去世的消息后，
我还是感伤了一个下午。
我在想，如果有什么事的人是你（大吉利事），我应该已经崩溃了。
我真的不知道，会怎么样 ....

好好珍惜身边重要的人，我告诉自己。

Busy Schedule

2009-07-31T02:36:00.005+08:00

I'm kinda stress now, actually.

For no reason, I feel myself very blur this semester. Did bad in my first quiz, cannot understand what lecturer talking about in class, lazy to revision, simply, not efficient in anything. I'm really worried, but yet nothing can be done. I'm still lazily, sitting here facing the computer, without actually doing anything.

A little bit of my up-coming schedule :

4th August : Power E Assignment Due
5th August : Data Com Test
6th August : PCI quiz, PCI Assignment Due, Probably Contol II quiz

7th August - 16th August : Mid-term break

17th August : Power E lab report Due
19th August : Control II test
20th August : PCI test
21st August : Power E test

So far.... That's all I can list out. Many many more unknown things might pop-out anytime, like those annoying ads for certain website. I'm kinda started revision, but frankly all I did was crap. I still far away from understanding for all the 4 core subjects I'm taking.

For the schedule before mid-term break, seems no great deal, but I'm actually running out of time for all these. Glad that we're able to complete Power E report with the help of kuan jie and ping yew (Thanks kuan jie, you always the best >.< ), now ping yew is doing the discussion (pai seh lar... If need me to do anything just tell me), so can really put it down first. The rest, have to work hard liaw lo. Really regret to have promise housemates to join them for Genting, but since the room has already booked, guess I'll have to bring something there to do. Promised Eugene to visit them during the weekend as well, but guess I really have to ffk this time. Awww.... It's really been a while since I last saw them..... Sorry man, I promise to go after I really got time. It's freakin' DARURAT PERIOD now. >.<''

For the schedule after mid-term break, it's scary. 3 tests in a row, can be fatal for me. I'm really really not good in handling tests together because when I can't understand something, I tend to memorize the pattern of the question and too many subjects together might get me confuse easily. Sigh, the only good thing is I have my mid-term break to prepare for all the 3 tests and, hopefully, I really will study by then.

As for my final year project, well, so far so good. My objectives in FYP proposal were reduced from 3 to 2 so my project is like quite empty now. But since Pn.Ayuniza is the one marking it, she want 2 I ma give her 2 lo.... Actually, I'm consider quite lucky compare to most of my friends as the lecturer who propose my title is actually learning about "Wireless Optical Communication" also so I don't really have much to do, just simple research and simulation using software. I guess it's a so far easy task for me, just worry that I might not have enough content for oral presentation and thesis. Nevermind lar, so busy this few weeks, maybe I should just leave it aside.

Alright, don't worry, I'm okay. This is not the first time, and won't be the last time as well. I'll get used to this soon or later I guess... Just want to list down everything here and take the oppoturnity for myself to be more organized.

Take it slow, make it happen. I can do it !

p.s. :
Changed the song in my blog. It's Breathe by Taylor Swift feat Colbie Caillat, 2 leng luis ^^ ... Always thought Taylor Swift's songs all same pattern one ... But I guess this song is a little bit different. Never check is the song from her old or new album, but I just like this song, the lyric is meaningful, and the song is nice as well.

Breathe
Caillat, Colbie; Swift, Taylor Alison;

I see your face in my mind as I drive away
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way
People are people and sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm, mmm

Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down
Now I don't know what to be without you around

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve
People are people and sometimes it doesn't work out
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

And I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me
It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

And we know it's never simple, never easy
Never a clean break, no one here to save me, oh

I can't breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to
Breathe
Without you, but I have to

I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry

佳莹 vs 芯仪

2009-07-28T02:52:00.003+08:00

抽空看了星光 5 ，进入 10 强前最后的比赛 - 学长姐合唱赛。

其实对于星光最后有热诚是在星光 3 的时候，星光 4 就不怎么看了... 而这集星光 5 更始开赛以来我看的第一集。回想起来，对于星光的成绩，我觉得最具争议的就是星光 3 时的林芯仪和徐佳莹了。那时候我真的很爱林芯仪（抱歉咯，男人都爱辣妹嘛.... ），所以当宣布徐佳莹是冠军时，我也觉得很愤愤不平。其实，当时的我真的很主观。现在看来，我不得不承认，徐佳莹真的名副其实。芯仪，要好好加油咯.....

林芯仪

徐佳莹

说真的，她（佳莹）这首 “ 身骑白马” 写得真不错。上次唱 k 的时候听了朋友唱过一次，就一直很喜欢这首歌。在这里也推荐给大家听听吧 =)

失眠

2009-07-27T07:01:00.003+08:00

一夜无眠。

不知不觉，天就这样亮了。

连续失眠，是痛苦的....

恶梦，什么时候才会醒？

或许，咖啡少喝两杯吧....

希望，明天会更好。

死性不改

2009-07-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

死性不改
Boyz, Twins

再見了我的寵愛　誰願接受這種意外
你讚我天生可愛　不願看著我離開
同伴也話我傻　喜歡受挫　寧願情敵在傷我

人天生根本都不可以　愛死身邊的一個
怎奈你最夠刺激我　凡事也治倒我
幾多黑心的教唆　我亦捱得過
來煽風　來點火　就擊倒我麼

誰戀愛就多障礙　死性我不想改
如我沒有你的愛　我沒法活得來
情人的存在　是我從來都志在
難在我拱手讓愛

我怕可一不可再　難道你被愛都有害
我確信天真不會錯　威力會移山填海
同伴也話我傻　喜歡受挫　寧願情敵再傷我

＊人天生根本都不可以　愛死身邊的一個
　怎奈你最夠刺激我　凡事也治倒我
　幾多黑心的教唆　我亦捱得過
　來煽風　來點火　就擊倒我麼

　誰戀愛就多障礙　死性我不想改
　如我沒有你的愛　我沒法活得來
　情人的存在　是我從來都志在
　難在我拱手讓愛＊

说真的，我好喜欢这首歌。
每每听到，都会想到我第一次听到这首歌的情景。
不是不爱，而是太爱了...
或许，这就是人生的悲哀。

Aku punya FYP title

2009-07-23T18:14:00.004+08:00

Tiba-tiba saja, aku terminat sangat lagu yang ku letakkan dekat blog aku ni lar.. Rasanya lyricnya amat feel sekali lar, banyak "touch" feeling aku sekarang ni ... Tak nak always blog dengan BI and Chinese lar.... Macam aku tak berapa "geng" dalam field bahasa ni ... So aku pun decide letak pendek pendek punya BM post kadang kala larrrr .....

Sebenarnya aku memang banyak kena affect oleh Ayuniza lar... ~~Dia~~ Beliau tu... Lecturer FYP aku... Memang comel MAX sekali .... Sentiasa pun bergurau dengan aku saja ... tapi orang dia memang baik MAX sekali lar... Telahpun menolong aku mencari banyak info untuk FYP aku .... So sekarang ni I cuma perlu baca baca semua benda tu .... Lepas tu settlekan aku punya FYP proposal this weekend lo.... Belum mention o tajuk FYP aku ...

"Distributed Wireless Optical Communication for Humanitarian Assistance in Disasters"

Tajuk nampak macam gaya sangat lar... sebenarnya mudah jeh... Dia tu manyak related sikit dengan Optical Communication lar.... Tapi orang pakai glass fiber, dia tu pakai wireless .... Itu jeh ... Bukan kata lar susah sangat... Design pun ada... Software pun ada.... Cuma kena practice sikit software tu lar.... Dan kena manyak buat itu literature review, lepastu boleh cin cai buat cerita bila oral presentation... KKKK ( Ketawa Keluar Kuat Kuat a.k.a LOL) ...

Harap-harap lar... minggu ni dapat siap.... Dah pun dekat mid term break.... Sem ni memang malas belajar ..... macam mana ni..... >.<'' ___________________________________________________________________

OK, enough with the ~~stupid~~ not so clever's BM post ...

Really really lazy this few weeks lo .. Always giving myself excuse, like : "School just start 3rd week lar... No need study one ....." . So, I really didn't study anything until now, not even revision, or tutorial, or whatever craps that I should start !! Sad case .. Hopefully I really start to do some revision this weekend after I settle my FYP proposal ... Sigh ...

Almost give up on diet / keep fit already ... No time, no energy , no mood also .... Just let myself FAT TIl DIE , I don't care a single bit ! So ... I ate some ciplak sushi from Jusco which is not cheap at all on Tues, after cheong k with Min, Py, and Vz ...

NOT NICE ONE !!! Pui ...

Also, prepared some "supplies" for myself ... What to do ? I betul-betul cant study at all when I got no food with me ... Sigh .... Bought my favourite MAX-est cookies .....

And more and more and more cookie / biscuit .... Coffee along ^^

Okok .... I swear I'll study hard this weekend ... erm.... hopefully?

>.<''

我好咯 ~

2009-07-14T21:55:00.007+08:00

反复不定的病情终于稳定了下来。
昨天开始也慢慢可以完整地把东西吃下去，我想，我应该康复了吧。
想想两天前我连喝水都会把水 “完整” 地吐出来，真是夭寿哦 ..
不过，生病还是有个好处的....
虽然这个星期我只 jogging 了一次，不过我的体重竟然再次下滑，
从59.8kg ( 好险, 差点又破 60 了) 直线下滑到 57.5 kg 耶!
不过应该就快升回上来咯 =.=
谢谢婷婷关心，你竟然是唯一一个从我差点病死到康复全程参与的人，
真不愧我们认识了快 10 年哈哈哈！
虽然没有帮你找到你要得 criminal act , 不过还是恭喜恭喜拿到那个，
全马六甲最大的律师楼的..... 什么什么。
好啦，礼物有啦，不过要等下次见面咯！

Sem 开始就一整个很沮丧，每天都觉得，很难受很难受。
一半是因为 final year 的压力，另一半则是一些其他的什么，
总之，我现在真的真的很需要一个悠长的假期啊啊啊啊啊~
朋友说，我 training 回来老了很多。
我觉得，应该可以说我，成熟了一点。
对于我处理事情的做法，其实连我自己都不太认同。
可惜，有些事情，或许就会注定栽在我的手上。
看来，我真的要反省反省。我真的真的，在改了哦。

说点学业方面的消息吧：

那天 industrial training 的 presentation 我真是爆强的，
虽然完全没有准备（不是懒惰啦，我都快病死了那天），
我竟然流畅地 present 在水准之上，
老师还说：good good, very interesting !
天啊，我不当政客真浪费了嘛.... 在台湾我就 “冻蒜” 了嘛！哈哈！
不过，也没什么好自豪的，不过就 pass 或 fail 罢了，哈哈...

终于定下心决定了 final year elective 的科目，分别是 :
i) Power Electronics
ii) Control II
iii) Electrical Safety and Hazard
iv) Artificial Intelligent and Neural Fuzzy / Control and Drives

还有个不确定是因为大家都在说 control and drives 很难，
不过也不要紧啦，反正我都在这种不上不下的成绩，
没有 maintain dean list CGPA 的压力，所以就很看开一下咯 ~

至于这个 sem ，目前看来都还 ok 的，虽然很多科目都还一头雾水，
也还没有进入读书的状态，
不过现在 dota 也没打了，觉也睡少了，应该会渐渐有时间读书吧....
反倒是 final year project 让我觉得有点烦。
我一直在想，到底要跟着 project title 拿，还是跟着 lecturer 拿好？
因为 project title 其实都没什么差，没什么特别想做的。
lecturer 是给分的老板，好像比较重要哦？
想说拿个 case study ，final year 摇摇脚，还有 Powertek RM1000 的 allowance 拿，
好像很划算一下哦....
虽然难 score ，不过只要保得住我的 3.30 ，应该就够了吧？ xD

要说最近真的真的有什么忙的话，应该就是 ......

Yup, my continuous effort of searching very delicious cakes lar ~~~
Why suddenly change English le ? Because hor ....
I know Ah Rey would be interested to read about this part mar....
So I ma write in English , maybe he can gives me some precious opinion lo...

Have tried lots of cakes actually, but so far I cannot get the so-called "BEST" one ..
I've tried many cakes from Secret Recipe ( Well, I would say "most" in fact) ..
New York Cheese Cake is nice ..
I like also White Choc Macadamia Nut Cake,
but too sweet for some ..
the rest..... ma ma dei lo.....
and I feel really sickening with choc banana cake .... =.=

Recently tried Apple Crumble Cheese Cake and Blueberry Cheese Cake ...

Apple Crumble Cheese Cake was my first try actually... Very sweet ahh.. >.<'' Somehow I like the apple crumble on it.... The cheese wasn't so nice... I think it's too hard already ....

Blueberry Cheese Cake pula ate jor many times lar.... Normal lo....
I also think the cheese is a little bit too hard....
Dunno is the problem of the shop or not lar....
But as usual, I cant taste the fragrant of blueberry lo....
I think they sure used ciplak jam lol ...... (okok , sorry, just my opinion)

Apple Crumble Cheese Cake (Secret Recipe)

Blueberry Cheesecake (Secret Recipe)

Also had the Blueberry cheesecake from Coffee Bean just recently lol ...
My sis say it sux MAX, but I think it is quite ok compare to Secret Recipe one ..
I like the biji-biji of blueberry inside, blueberry jam also not bad...
and the cheese was quite smooth ...
Just that the base of the cake was not so nice .... a little bit too soft liaw ...
Overall it's ok, but I wont say it as very good also lar......

Blueberry CheeseCake (Coffee Bean)

Actually also tried some other cakes for the past few months lo...
Marble Cheesecake from Starbucks was really really delicious,
and I read from internet that their choc cake is even nicer ! gotta try it when I'm free..
Friend from lowyat net gave high rating for Tiramisu and Pavlova from Alexis.
I think their Tiramisu is really nice , although some find it too sweet ....
Pavlova is just not my cup of tea ...

Maybe, I need to try more, before I actually decide,
which is only, the best cake for me ....
And I really really appreciate, if having any nice cake to intro me to try =)
I'll definitely go try it heh heh heh !

p.s. : But I'll never forget the chocolate cake for my birthday, this year and last year , as feeling wise, those are definetely the best best cake ever ... heh heh heh .....

Fear

2009-07-08T22:57:00.002+08:00

I really don't want this.

No !! Not again.

I .... hate myself ...

Real Man

2009-07-06T21:38:00.004+08:00

Thanks for the celebration, a really nice one ... Though it embarrass a lot when the whole cafe people singing birthday song for me ... I really enjoyed it... Thanks guys =)

Happy Belated 21st Birthday to myself !

It has been a while since I last updated my blog. Hmm, lots to write about actually, but guess I'll leave them aside for the time being. Feeling very "fan" now .. Many many things to trouble yet I'm like totally strengthless to overcome it.

I need to worry for my industrial training report, which at first Dr.Azree told us we'll be submitting in soft copy, and I end up never print it out. 100+ pages with lots of photos sial , I would have used my company's printer for it if I knew it earlier ...Fcuk UNITEN, Fcuk Azree ...

Then is the industrial training presentation. Stupid UNITEN requires us to do the presentation with transparancies, which really really very ma fan for me as I got soooo many pictures that I need to use in my presentation. Without the picture? Can present, but it would really be a boring and sucks one ... How the hell they going to understand what we did when they never see the things before? If they really don't care about the presentation so much, then why they still require us to do the presentation?

Yet, I'm taking Final Year Project this sem. I'm really EXTREAMLY panic now as I don't even know what am I going to do with the project ! No direction, no clue, not even the basic idea of what I am doing or what I will be doing. All I can do is to wait until Friday for the FYP briefting which make me really really uneasy now. Too many uncertainties, and, all I can do is just wait.

Secondary buddies are leaving one after another. First, Lee Left to Germany. Then, Tan to Singapore, Aow to US. And now, WC is leaving to Aus. I'm like almost alone in Malaysia and I'm really feeling... so alone now. Until now, only I know, how much I rely on my buddies when I face these troubles.

Wc, thanks for worrying about me although you're so far away and was not even settled down yet. And thanks for introducing me... that =.=
but frankly , I'm feeling more comfortable now alone. Really. I appreciate it but I believe 1 day I'll meet someone I really really like a lot, and she will be the only one, but not now. She hasn't appear yet, I know. Really, million thanks for concerning me so much, buddy =)

Again, thanks for all the birthday wish. I may not able to reply all of you, but here I still want to say , thanks a lot.

Life is tough, but it still goes on , and I've to face it, like a man now.

How to create your own PIKACHU

2009-06-16T19:44:00.003+08:00

Yo, here I come again .. Online dekat Mc.D now ... Actually it's quite silly lar to drive 1 hour all the way to Melaka just to online lar... But I really got no other choice ... Found 1 cybercafe at Masjid Tanah which really SUX til MAX and I cant even stay more than 5 min there jiu lari liaw... Although Mc.D is kinda good as I can online til really late (kakakax... 24 hours mar... Working time can sleep nvm ... ) and I get free coffee (as much as I can drink) .... But having Mc meal once a week is really really spoiling my diet program lar... I think I never lose weight for this few weeks lar... SAD !! ><

Yawn, seems that getting more and more people like to online at Mc.D until I cant even play my game here... Sorry MAX ya Min, Sy, Rey and Jason ... I didn't know Mc.D's line suddenly SUX MAX liddat... I apologize >.<''

Since.... cannot play game here.... Shall have some lame post here ...

Since I'm working at a power station mar .... Generating power is like small matter for us lar.... then 1 day I was boring and conteng conteng the white board hor... I suddenly think of this :

How to create your own PIKACHU !!
Clever MAX hor ?! Here's the step :
1. Prepare a mouse, kite and a glass bottle with 150% efficiency MAX insulation
2. Wait for rainy day with many many thunder one
3. Do your connection as shown in diagram above
4. Wait for the lighting to strike down on your kite , and you'll have a... PIKACHU !

OK ... Really lame... Such a pity that I never went for Art Class..
I know.. =)

Yesterday a technician prepared some "kuah durian" and brought to Workshop for us..

YeEwww... Damn GELI MAX !! Actually, according to my friend who eat durian, it is quite nice lar... Made of durian, santan and gula ... They use it to dip with roti lar... everyone say nice....

I tried some... and... so DURIAN ... @.@''

Actually last time I got eat durian one... But don't know why suddenly don't like the smell already ... Maybe ate too much ... phobia already lol ....

And the same day evening, another technician brought the same thing ( but he use gula melaka, they say even nicer ) ... Then they eat with rice this time and call it "pulut durian" .. which is really EXTREAMLY GELI TIL MAX MAX MAX and the whole workshop's pantry is full of durian's smell... YeewW...

Anyway, glad that training is going to finish in 2 weeks time (or even lesser now I guess) ... Really happy to leave this place but I really gonna miss everyone here... I'll be back, hopefully....

割舍不了的羁绊

2009-06-09T17:35:00.001+08:00

这个星期，traning 中难得的忙碌。我们 8 个 trainee 都被安排参与了这次的 stock check。和我们一起工作的还有一些 admin 的员工。有点陌生，因为很多几乎都是不常见面的。庆幸自己被分到了另外一个华人一组，所以工作沟通上还算容易，而且很大程度上我都算帮得上忙，不至于太没用。不过透过这次工作，很多人的 “惰性” 几乎都可以看得出来。我自认不是一个勤劳的人，可是却也没有打算公然偷懒到这种地步。至少，我真的可以认为，华人的成功不是偶然，而友族同胞的 “不太成功” 也绝对和天赋没有关系。

车子还是没有修好，驾着的是我的老爷 Satria 。不过，手机倒是换了一架。

其实，虽然我很年轻（应该算吧？），可是我的内在真的是古董到不行。应该说，我讨厌改变。我真的真的不喜欢，生活中的任何一个环节脱离了他们原本应该处于的位置。所以，当我的车坏的时候，我会很烦躁，因为我的车应该好好的。所以，当我东西来不及做完的时候，我会很烦躁，因为我的东西应该要如期完成。所以，当我原本计划好的计划（这句很怪哦？ planned plan ) 被打乱的时候，我会很烦躁，纯粹因为，不该如此。

越说越远了，在这里生活就了难免有点啰嗦的老人性子。回到手机，其实，如果不是逼不得已，我也实在舍不得花钱换电话（虽然说最后我也只花了 RM40 kekekekek )，毕竟自己也不是那种喜欢追逐科技步伐的现代人。实在是因为我的中古兼停产的 W800i 最经总爱不自觉地自己 “睡着”（关机），加上和我同时间买电话的朋友都换了电话，所以我就狠下心来买咯。这次换了 Sony Ericsson 的 C905, 8.1 Megapixels 哦, 拍照真的很不错看一下。重点是，它不贵（以同等级的电话来说啦）！换了个 4Gb 的 Micro M2 才 RM1340 ，挺值得的哦。

外观还不错吧？某个程度上我也是被它的外表吸引啦！本来有想说换 nokia 的 5800 , 也不是说很难看啦，而且 nokia 的功能真的比 SE 强大很多 (忘了说，我的手机还在用着 java 的说，所以 Garmin 的 GPS 又用不到啦！ orz ) ，不过最后还是因为这架机太好看了，所以还是买了它。

很窘的是，它的 GPS 真的烂到不行啦！功能也是一般般。总的来说，就是相机能看罢了啦！

至于我的 W800 呢，trade in 是没有价钱的啦！就算可以买到很好价钱我也舍不得拿来卖啦！用了这么久，有感情的嘛.... 记得 w800 是在我 foundation 2nd sem 的时候向我朋友的哥哥的女朋友的不懂谁的店买的，还便宜了 RM50 呢！（不过好像不久后 w810 面世，w800 的价格完全崩溃的说... ）用了快 3 年，它真的参与了我人生经历最多的一段日子。有喜，有悲，很复杂的感受。也陪我去了很多地方。和父母的槟城、合艾旅行，和祖民、仕勇的 Pangkor 旅行、和三姐和 Hendrick 他们的台湾之旅，我真的带“它” 去了很多地方呢！

是该让“它” 光荣退休了。我真的真的，会好好保存它。因为，它拥有我人生最重要的回忆。它是，我最割舍不了的羁绊。

Training Life - Last Complain

2009-06-03T22:06:00.005+08:00

刚刚我赌了很大的一场。

我现在在 Dataran Pahlawan 隔壁的 24 hours Mc.D ，坐在我好不容易才霸到，角落得一点也不引人注目的好位，满身大汗地盯着电脑荧幕。刚刚 mouse 坏了，又答应了朋友一起玩场 dota 轻松一下，缓和我今天一整天就想杀人的情绪。无奈之下，我只好赌一赌了。我看到附近有两个在温习功课的马来女生，看起来也会待一阵子，然后我以百米快跑的速度，跑进 Pahlawan ，买了只 mouse , 再冲回来。边跑，我一路上边想，我会因为这次的巧合而对人性更有信心，还是会同时失去了 laptop （其实我也想说该换电脑了... ）和对别人的信心。幸好，甩掉了一身的赘肉，我跑得也算够快的了，加上现在其实真的也有很多好心人，我很高兴地看到我的电脑待在原地，而我拜托帮忙的女生仍然义无反顾地守着我的电脑。大恩不言谢，我很感激地看了她一眼，她也走掉了。无论如何，萍水相逢，她还是帮了我这样的一个大忙，真是太开心了。拿到了 mouse ，就和威汉和威佑打了场 dota .... 本来以为输定了，结果竟然绝处逢生，让我们来个绝地大反击，真是.... 哇哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！

---------------------------很烦躁的一段-----------------------------------

心情，真的好了很多.... 话说我今天在 powerplant 那里还差一点挥拳打人呢！就话说，根据这个礼拜的 schedule ，我们就被迫离开我们温暖的 C&I (Control & Instruments) 的大家庭，来到很烂，很不温暖，每个人都很怪懒很冷漠的 Electrical ...超显的，开工第二天就要我去 unloading station 帮忙。工作是要把 Shell 运来的油 unload 去我们的储油桶里。因为还要做 sampling ，所以全身搞得又脏又臭的。或许你会觉得，很好啊？学到东西不是吗？错！其实这种工作，随便找个阿猫阿狗都会做，他们只不过是懒惰做，不想弄脏自己，才拼命使唤我们 trainee 罢了。

夸张得要死的安全措施，又闷又热....

不过，这也就算了。最最最过分的，今天带我们的是一个 electrical 的 foreman 。很有经验，据说比我们的 Power Station Manager 入行还早，据他说。

"Dulu dulu ahhh, kita punya PSM pun ikut abang belajar tau? "
"Dari tahun 1995 abang bawa trainee, dah beratus trainee abang bawa tau? "
"Tengok ni ... Tau, ini whole system abang yang buat tau? "
"Dah beratus trainee abang bawa, kamu semua ni kata tau sebenarnya apa pun tak tau, tau?"

很多很多。我看到的，只是他的丑恶；听到的，只是他令人作呕的声音；感受到的，只是他对 trainee 看不起的心。我真的很生气，很生气，很生气。

没错，他学富五车，也很厉害，什么都知道。
没错，他入行已久，经验丰富， power plant 里数一数二。
没错，我们学疏才浅，还有很多不懂，还有很多要学。
没错，从大学学到的都是屁，我们或许真的什么都不懂。

但，那又怎样？

什么都不懂，就一定要被别人看不起？
什么都不懂，就一定要受人家的白眼？
什么都不懂，你就能够用语言像鞭子般一下下地抽在别人身上？

有谁，在一开始，就什么都懂？

我们不懂，我们愿意去听，去学。我们从来也没有摆过不想学的态度。

如果有，其他部门的人早就投诉我们了。可是，没有。我们仍然颇受好评。

问题，到底出在我们，还是他？

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还是回到开心点的事情吧.... 最近去 gym 去得满勤的，昨天还搞到我的手差点残废，洗头都无法把手举到头上（这算 “不举” 吗？），只好低下头来洗，超畸形的。幸好最近去 gym 都碰到其他 trainee，或者 staff ，有人帮忙 back-up ，举重也好玩很多。安全性提高了嘛，就拚了命地挑重的举咯！哈哈哈哈哈.... （错误示范，错误示范... ）

前阵子为了减重，午餐大概都吃些... :

可是，超难吃的。

虽然体重轻了一点点，可是都没有肌肉。而且，最近体重几乎都没有再要下降的迹象。看起来，离我的梦想 55kg 是不可能的了。不过，还真希望可以搞副阮经天这样的身材来也不错了啦！哈哈哈哈... (才发现阮经天长得超像灵佑（我一个朋友）的，很久没有联络了，改天找他拍张照片来 po po ）

也没有什么好写的了... 工作环境还是一样地优美...

偶尔还有不同的动物出现....

(偶然出现在 powerplant 过滤器的螃蟹... 应该是不小心被吸进来的）
(p.s. : 应该被煮掉了.... )

偶然出现在我家的蛇....
被我.... 一刀两断！

p.s. :
Dear Mr. Babron ,

If you see this, and which I hope you really will (I left my URL in many computer in power plant ooo ) , chill , calm down, and read this properly.

Thank you for spending your time with us, which we really appreciate a lot. You're very knowledgeable, we all know. And of course, we must admit that you're a really experienced foreman.

However, if you want me to comment, your attitude really SUX MAX and no matter who ask me (even PSM asking for my comment), I'll say the same thing that you taught us a lot, but your attitude is even worse than my standard 1 students. I never seen people as ego and like to show off like you. Yes, you can show off to us now. And yes, I don't mind being humiliate like now listening to say "HOW STUPID ARE THE TRAINEES" . I really don't mind.

I know that I'll need your signature for my schedule by the end of next week to finish my training with Electrical Department and really, I still want to learn many things from you. But remember, 1 day after I graduate, I'll come back to the power plant. And I really looking forward that day, whenever, wherever I'm able to pay you back, I'll ensure to pay you back everything in double.

Just remember this.

Tagged by Partial Sum =)

2009-06-03T21:55:00.002+08:00

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
Ear ( erm... dun ask me why .... *shy* )

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
sienz coz have to work again ...

3. Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
Liza (working together at Powertek de Malay girl)

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
Ya

5. Will you ever donate blood?
Yes

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes

7. Do you want someone to be dead?
YES !

8. What does your last text message say?
"eat -> sleep = pig "

9. What are you thinking right now?
What time to leave Mc.D and home ...

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Yes..... :X

11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
12 am , right after greeting Hendrick Happy Birthday !!

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Sg.Wang

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes.... :X

14. Who was the last person who text you?
Umm... :X

Ten Lucky Person to do this quiz:

1. Choo Min
2. Ping Yew
3. Sze Yoong
4. Teng Teng
5. Ah Rey
6. Wee Han
7. Woon Lee
8. Ai Ling
9. Pui Yong
10. Hendrick

p.s. : I think half of them din read my blog lol ...

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
LOL.. yap yap ?

16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
Male.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
Err... Cannot ... no. 7 is my sis.. >.<''

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Engineering o...

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
Recent...

20. Is no.4 single?
Not longer available lol ...

21. Say something about no.2?
Always confident... Good in everything ... a 150% trustworthy good friend !

22. What do you think about no.3 and no.6 being together?
That would be very GAY lol !!

23. Describe no.9?
My eldest sis lol ...

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
No 7 will win , because No.6 is too much thinner than her...

25. Do you like no.8?
Sure, she's my 2nd sis lol ...

Melaka Cendol Stall @ Kelana Jaya Mall

2009-05-30T01:14:00.003+08:00

Actually, I really don't like to put advertisement in my blog lar...

One thing is sometimes can really irritate people when they are reading..
I've seen famous bloggers fully filled their blog with advertisement and...
Crap ! That makes me don't feel like to read their blog as well...
(although partly also jealous they earn a lot by ads in blog lar.. )

Second, my blog really not much people reading lo...
But since it's a request from my sis, guess I'll just do it lar..

Yes yes , it's my eldest sis ... The most balance one ...
Not the too thin or.... not enough thin that one ..
And she's opening a Melaka Cendol Stall
@ Kelana Jaya Mall lar...
Don't quite sure where is it but I think it's surely somewhere Kelana Jaya lar..

They'll start their business 1st of June, if I'm not mistaken ...
Frankly lar, the cendol is real nice one ... I ate once before during her wedding lol...
I don't quite like the green colour thing (not that tak sedap, just geli for me),
but the red bean really ~~big~~ VERY BIG lar...
Last time I eat ice kacang also I like this kind of red bean...
And most important , they really pakai Gula Melaka from Melaka lar..
Very original lol ...
Can try it lar... or ask friends to go try lol ...
If very got heart, post in blog support har my sis also can ^^

K lar.. That's it ..
Remember go try har !!

忽然，好想种一盆风信子哦

2009-05-20T08:18:00.006+08:00

在友人的部落格大力推荐下，看了台湾偶像剧 “败犬女王”。不得不承认，友人的确是剧集达人，因为虽然还没有看完，但已经看得我血脉膨胀，惊喜连连，真是最近看到的剧集中算不错的了。以前不爱看台湾偶像剧，因为很假，拍得太梦幻了，很多不可能发生的情节都可以忽然冒出来，男主角随随便便就可以是什么世界首富的继承人之类的，真是太超过了（哈哈，巧克力~）！反之在“败犬”中就没有这样的乱七八糟，真是很值得看呢！

女主角单无双（杨谨华饰）虽然长得一般般，可是演得不错，个性也很可爱的。虽然之前都不太知道杨谨华是谁，可是就觉得她长得有几分像郑秀文的说。男主角庐卡斯（阮经天饰）就真的很帅的说。虽然前阵子阮经天因为“命中注定我爱你”（是这出吗？我没看不知道哦）很红，不过真的知道他还是因为裸泳事件（好像是他吧？），搞得还真的是“惊天”动地。我必须承认，他有比我帅，身高够，身材也超好。说到这里，必须扯点题外话。话说，前阵子和朋友聊天（内容并不完全依照原版聊天内容）:

Leo : 有看“败犬”吗？好看厚？
Friend : 有啊！真的不错咯，是最近看到不错的！
Leo : 那个女主角是谁啊？好像不认识的？阮经天就超帅厚？
Friend : 杨谨华啦…. 是咯是咯，身材好又够高嘛 ….
Leo : 是咯是咯，我最近都有去 gym ，想练到这样的身材说...
Friend : 啊？你… ？差太远了吧 …?
Friend : 身高 ….
Friend : 身高 > 一切 =)

啊！！我就知道 T.T …..

算了，回到正题。除了主角，“败犬”中的配角都超级可爱，也超级让人印象难忘的。韩佳佳（不知道谁演）超漂亮的说。宋新妮和陈维民演的两夫妻超搞笑的，有点像电影 “Ice Age” 中那只追着坚果到处跑的松鼠（应该是松鼠吧？）的效果一样。曾诗梅在里面演修女耶！“愿主保佑你！！”，哇哈哈哈哈，超可爱的她。还有还有，女主角的妈妈，忘了那个女的叫什么名了，可是也是演得很好的说。还有还有，那个前黑涩会美眉琳恩竟然也有演哦！不过我就只记得她的安全气囊很大罢了啦！而至今印象最最最深的，应该是张兆志演的唐X X了吧？每次的长篇大论都太经典了，笑得我都快岔气了！

好啦，不多说了，不然还没看的朋友一定觉得我废话连篇。其实，撇开故事不提，戏中梁静茹的歌真是一首接一首，看来这部戏的制作人真的很喜欢她哦？不过这实在不是坏事，毕竟梁静茹这次的专辑可以说是中文专辑中少见的首首动人，我最近手机铃声都改成了她的说。好的剧集要有好的歌曲来衬托，好的歌曲也要有好的剧集来宣传才行。所以我说小梁啊，这次你真该多谢“败犬”，才又会多了我这么一个粉丝。 =)

心情感想 :
忽然忽然，就好想种一盆风信子哦…

Be dead, and to rise from the dead....

背后的意义却似乎不只这样而已。就好像这几天，除了看戏，其实我也回想了、反省了很多自己的问题。而很大部分，都是围绕在这句话思考开来，像一个永远不解的谜题，或者一个无限大的，卧着的 8 。

很多人都说过类似的话：拿起，总比放下容易。

我知道，很多事情，我始终还是没有放下。

好想种一盆风信子….

好想知道，我有没有勇气在第一株花死后，去让它再次开花…

我真的…. 好期待，未来的自己 ….

My weekend =)

2009-05-18T16:27:00.006+08:00

What I've done today le.... Umm.. Nothing much, really nothing much...

According to my sis, I shall give her a new name - "Shu Hui II "

Budak cleaning department C & I

K ... Leave the boring working post aside ...

Went KL this weekend... Thought can have a good rest but end up going here and there and was sooo sooo sooo tired ... Better get some rest during work this week.. Kakax ^^

Greenbox on Saturday morning, with min, sze yoong and ping yew...Nothing much lar , just feel everyone becum pai seh jor after long time never cheong k .... Our song list like never reached 3rd page on that day, which is very rare when we go cheong k lar... Anyway, although normally I cheong k also not very nice lar, still got few songs that I think I sing til very got "gan qing" lo (normally those judges will say so when the ppl has lousy voice or singing skill lar) , like 听见有人叫你宝贝 lol....
p.s. : Shy Lin intro me this song one o...
Actually my MOST FAVOURITE-EST song this week is Jolin's 妥协 , also sang that day, but felt damn bad because I totally spoiled the song =.= ~

妥协 by Jolin
你總愛編織謊言我負責配合表演
所有改變只為了進入你的世界
這情節重覆了一百遍才發現是你的心太野

你劃定楚河漢界我不能輕易犯規
所有時間都是先給了你優先權
不自覺愛到不敢冒險成了你的傀儡一年兩年
才看見我有多狼狽

愛到妥協到頭來還是無解
綁著你不讓你飛歷史不斷重演我好累

愛到妥協也無法將故事再重寫
你已下最後通牒我躲在我的世界

你劃定楚河漢界我不能輕易犯規
所有時間都是先給了你優先權
不自覺愛到不敢冒險成了你的傀儡一年兩年
才看見我有多狼狽

愛到妥協到頭來還是無解
綁著你不讓你飛歷史不斷重演我好累

愛到妥協也無法將故事再重寫
你已下最後通牒我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一個人睡我不想再為你掉淚
我了解不會變不再徘徊
開始自己的明天

愛到妥協到頭來還是無解
綁著你不讓你飛歷史不斷重演我好累
愛到妥協也無法將故事再重寫
你已下最後通牒我躲在我的世界

Indeed a very touching song huh ? We measure our weight after came out and it was indeed frightening... Everyone lost weight sial .. Seems that I'm really affecting many people hor ? LOL !!

After greenbox, vee zian joined us for movie "Angels and Demons" ... It was written by the same author of The Da Vinci Code, Dan Brown and in fact, it is earlier than The Da Vinci Code.. I've read about the novel (chinese version one) one or two years ago.. Didn't remember lots bout the story but I remember it was a real good one lar... So before watch also a bit worry, scare they shoot til like Da Vinci Code like that then will be very dissapointing lar... Luckly, the movie was damn nice... I'll give 90%, or more for it (I give The Da Vinci Code 40% nia).. Most important, apart from The Da Vinci Code, most parts of the story were explained clearly and I bet most people would like the movie lar... STRONGLY RECOMMENDED !! =)

Didn't joined Min they all for dinner but was glad to have a yc session at night ... Chat til quite late, and many things that went into my mind that night ... I admit that I'm not a good listener, because most of the time when I try to absorb something, I wouldn't be able to give much response to people who was talking .... Maybe later on, I'll talk about it, but not now ... Maybe, it's just too much for me to digest now ....

Sunday morning, glad that at least 1, or 2 among us woke , so we were able to go on with our dim sum session, kakakax.... Didn't remember much about the food already, maybe because my desire to food already reduce a lot liaw recently ... But was quite fun lar because chat til quite long also after finish eating ... I keep throw many lame jokes lol ... but no people laugh =(
k lar k lar... Just want to be a more humour people ( like wl ) mar... sorry lo.. >.<'' Then... jiu went to BU's house find my sis and parent liaw .... nothing much there ~.~

心情笔记：
这个星期的心情始终很平淡，很平淡，很平淡….
比有名的“平旦漫画”还平淡 ……
唯一的感觉，心，就像九把刀小说《爱情，两好三坏》中被阿克挥出的全垒打一样，

越飞越远 …..

越飞越远 …..

越飞越远 …..

越飞越远 …..

越飞越远 …..

Just.. lunch

2009-05-15T13:54:00.004+08:00

Excited laR!!!! Going KL later eh.... KL KL KL eh !!!!!

Weeee Hooo !!! Yeeee Haaaa !!! Wakakakakaka !!!

But.. working life is still sienz MAX as usual ..

Woke up late today, so brought my breakfast and eat here...

Then... Damn sien... nothing to do..

From about 8.15 a.m. I start reading my "jiu ba dao" until 9.45 a.m. ...

Still nothing to do ....

Erps, I should say, nothing for me to do...

But strange wor, everyone all got other things to do..

So... I mai ter-zz lo.... I know sleeping when working is very mou ban lar..

But... What else can I do o? Damn sad forgot to bring my PSP today.. >.<''

Slept until 10.30 a.m. ... Woke... and went online til 11 sth almost 12 ...

Just when I about to go for lunch (recently sometimes will eat normal lunch liaw),

Mr.Adanan called me ...

Actually I also don't know his post in plant lar.. I think he's at least my head's level lar..

Because he also got his own's room one...

It was 12.20 p.m. , and he asked me to help him do an Excel table ...

Very ez one lar, just need to merge here merge there to make until exactly same eat time a bit..

Finally, I'm done and it was already 1 p.m.

(Not I slow hor... got 2 pages mar... no mouse some more... use mouse pad le..)

Decided to reward myself something nice for lunch,

so I went for my favourite "gon lou min" (dry noodle) ,

Gon lou min , hou hou sek ; kopi o, hou hou yam ....

Lol the feeling a bit like Hakkha mee, so I really LOVE it lo...

Drinks is my recent's favourite : kopi O, kao kao, kiam di (kpi O pekat pekat, kurang manis)

Although eating alone a lil lonely (WL accompany Liza for Malay foods),

but think I stil can get use to it ba ...

Saw my big boss ( my head's head) eating with few technicians,

but I didn't join them ... Coz the table is small lar..

Some more I damn pai seh, scared he pay for me again like last time met him.. LOL

CROSS?!

Got friend say before, the way I hold my chopsticks is wrong ...

But I always thought it doesn't matter....

Just when I about to have my last fish ball.....

T.T .....

which I just picked it up from the ground....

K lar... I must be lame MAX posting all these stuff ....

Since dou lame liaw... Post 1 more lame thing ...

Recently, all the technicans and foremans (we're working with them now) say,

I look a lot like Calvin...

Well, I don't know I should proud or what o ...

I means, he is holding very high post in the plant (Operation Manager le, at least top 3 high)

but... aih....

What do you guys think ?

p.s. : I always think the guy right most look a lot like Qun Sheng... LOL ...

X-Men Origins : Wolverine

2009-05-14T13:00:00.004+08:00

Watched "X-Men Origins : Wolverine" yesterday ...Frankly lar, the story quite sucks lo ... I means, the movie flow is really like so so so so slow that I almost fall asleeeeeeep ... There wasn't many people yesterday because all people had "preview" the movie already mar... I would say the one leaked SUX MAX lar... Still can see wire one .... Watch in cinema is much better !!

Anyway, I would say it is still worth to watch lar because the actions really quite nice ... Especially when early early Wade Wilson play with his 2 swords really yeng MAX lar.. And, the part where Hugh Jackman show off his buttock... heh heh heh .... LOL kidding !! but damn muscular lar him.. hope become liddat also.... I guess most people watch this movie also watch Logan nia ... So I think I sun bian introduce some other character that I like to you all ba =)
(I was a X-Men fans !! )

This is Wolverine's tiu loi ( Wolverine's lover) , Silverfox ... And in the movie she played by Lynn Collins... Don't know she mat sui o.... NOT leng lui pun (sorry lar her fans, just my opinion) , I think her diamond sis is much cuter though ...
Anyway, I remember I heard the name Silverfox before but I forgot bout her ability liaw.. But I swear I DON'T remember she had what mind control ability lar.... Really NONSENSE !

p.s. : She gives Logan "Wolverine" name one o... Consider quite important ba... I would more prefer my dear Angelina Jolie to play this role lar... Will be much better.... Maggie Q also not bad ... :P

And this is Wolverine's heng dai, Sabretooth. Nothing much to say bout him, coz I forgot about Sabretooth edy.. LOL!!

GAMBIT !!! Yeng zai no.1 !!! Gambit was my MOST FAVOURITE-EST character in X-Men series, because he's always so yeng lol ... His ability consider quite weak(compare to Storm, Cyclope those kind got big big AOE skill one lar.. ) , just to make things that he touched explode... But the way he shoots poker remind me of Gamble King lol ....
Taylor Kitsch plays Gambit and ... I don't know who's he also xD
(pai seh... jarang watch movie)

The Blob !! Erps.. I means... "bud" .... =)
Don't know this character come from where one (maybe coz I didn't finish the old anime series).... But he's real funny in movie... LOL !!

and... ta dang !! Looks familiar right?

LOL he's Will.I.Am from Black Eye Peas, and I really suprised to see him !! Love his songs (especially recently with Flo Rida one : Make me throw my hands in the ayer ay-ayer !! ) ... He played John Wraith in the movie with ability to teleport (should be lar.. I remember similar ability but forgot who's the guy liaw) ...

K lar... Just cin cai say a bit bout this movie .... Would suggest you guys to watch it if really free lar... Since Weds oni RM6 mar... mai anggap support har Hugh Jackman lar.. LOL !

Wolverine !!

2009-05-13T12:37:00.003+08:00

6th week of my Industrial Training, really has nothing special liaw... Or I should say, anything special already become not special to me liaw lo... Jian guai bu guai mar.... Just now follow our technician and foreman went to Local Control Room.. Only got 3 of us lo.... Then we 3 mai curing tulang a bit there, start chatting... Then only I realize, the adults' world is actually so different.They chatted a lot, relationship about people(or in simpler way you can say they talking bad about other staff lar), politics (damn sensative can?) , etc etc etc .... I could hardly joined them in the conversation so I just sit there, and listen. So this is how adults world look like, how working is, which I've been curious all these while. That's why, I always feel people is different when working and when study .... And after 1 and a half month of working , I can feel that I gonna more and more appreciate my last year of study life in UNITEN...

1 thing that make me happy is, tonight we're going to Dataran Pahlawan to watch "Wolverine" !!!

Although got friend told me that the movie is really sucks MAX, but really still damn looking forward lar... Because this is the only once outing in this week. Now I start to understand why after working people like to get some entertainment, because if they don't "neutralize" all the suffers they had in working, sure gone CRAZY I guess. Me, Wei Liang, Liza and Min Wei are going for the movie but sadly the other 2 are not joining us for dinner, so me and Wei Liang still have to enjoy our 2 person candle light dinner... >.<

Which remind me of our outing last week when I was hunting for Mother's Day present. We had dinner at "Wong Kok Char Chan Ting" , and I was so happy then I ordered "Cheese Bake Seafood Spaghetti" and "Yuen Yong" which almost spoiled my diet plan =.=

Must practice extra caution tonight !! (Although when go out, normally I sure makan saja lar!!! hahaha, budget 2 kg for me to fat back tonight ^^ )

Anyway, it's really glad to be able to go KL cheong k this weekend, and I'm feeling so so so so so excited now coz of this also !! Sing k eh !! Most important, it has been a month ++++ I've not seen my friends liaw !! Wakakak !! I bet this weekend will be a real fun weekend!!

Lose weight le !!!

2009-05-07T12:46:00.008+08:00

As I'm going into the 3rd week of my diet, I finally see some result. Yeah, from a damn fat 67kg, I've start losing weight and currently my weight is 61.3kg (Yeah damn cun one can ? I spent RM40++ bought a digital penimbang berat k ? ) !!! However, sad thing is, when I look into the mirror, my big tummy is still there and I still look so chubby... Sien max..

Would like to share some of my diet recipe here and I found out that it is really very useful for diet :

Breakfast(7.30 a.m.)
option 1 : Low fat milk + Oat
option 2 : Gardenia (2-3 pieces) + Nescafe (green colour one)

I've tried to eat oat but really taste so....So I decided to give up on oat lar... Well, nevermind lar, breakfast is the most important meal of the day mar... Eat more a bit can one lar... Hahaha...

Lunch(12.30 p.m.)
option 1 : 2 fruits
option 2 : Fish + some veges
option 3 : Nescafe + energy bar

Actually my lunch really depends my mood lar, but most of the time I just settle with 2 fruits because sometime really got no appetite to eat lar.. If I'm really hungry, I'll go out eat lo, normally eat fish and veges ... Or I'll have my energy bar.... But is DAMN SO EXPENSIVE lar!!

Tea-break (4 p.m.)
option 1 : Nescafe + energy bar
option 2 : milo kosong
option 3 : Nescafe

Option 1 is a little bit heavy lar, because normally evening I'll go jogging, so will need more energy lar.... If my lunch is heavy ( eg: option 2 or 3 of lunch ) , then I'll just go for milo kosong or nescafe.

Workout (5.30 p.m.)
Daily : Jogging (30-40 mins)
Sit up (30 to 50 depends on mood)
Optional : Weight lifting

Yosh, as a reward for my result, I bought myself a bar bell and two 5 kg weights. Actually also heard people say before that if I can train muscle then muscle can help me burn fats lar.. I also don't know true anot .... Anyway, weight lifting is really very very depends on mood lo , so normally also got mood only do one lar... Now focus on chest, because people always say my chest (or breast?) look like at least A cup..... Wanna make it flat a bit lar, but seems hard.. Haiz....
Jogging... Actually also jog for 15 mins only lar... The rest of the time more to "walking" ... Haha... Then about sit up ... Actually I try to do as many as I can to get rid of the big tummy, but normally after 30 times, then got a potential to get cramp on my stomach... Damn painful lo...

This is the bukit behind where I normally go jogging lar.. Damn cool man, sometimes jog jog har suddenly can see cows eating grass beside ... And I've only met people there less than 3 times , a little bit scary lar...

Dinner (7 p.m.)
option 1 : vege + chicken
option 2 : veges soup that contain damn lots of MSG

I really hate veges, but it seems to be the best choice to diet. I'm not so healthy until eat boil veges lar, so is still sayur goreng (with a lot of MSG). Else, I'll have veges soup lar, but also like drinking MSG only ... Mou ban fat, only got several chinese stall around my place so have to bear with it a little bit lo ....

p.s. : Actually I'm thinking of other method to diet previously also.... For example liposuction... but that one too expensive lar.. Then my friend intro me some medicine, looks good but I really dare not try lar ... for example : Zenikel orlistat (which rumor says that can let you shit out the oil in your body), hydrocycut hardcore (which contain damn lots of caffeine and can let you works out longer) etc ... I personally think if not really fat til can die liaw, don't go try better lar... Powerbar is good, eating 1 is like eating 1 meal already and I'm sure you won't feel hungry when workout lar... Drawback is too cb expensive liaw .. About RM8/bar .... orz

I am targeting 55kg actually but the pace of slimming like slow down a lot already, no matter how hard I exercise. Most important is I really hope I can look slimmer lar , not just lose weight... Because losing weight might be just losing water from body mar(I sweat a lot lol) ... And hopefully my weight can at least maintain at current status lar.. Heavy back I sure cry to dead... (Tuesday went WongKok ate cheese baked seafood spaghetti, Weds ate pasar malam's roti john, now damn regret... Lucky haven see the weight increase back T.T )

Jia you lo !!!!

p.s. : I know my diet way maybe not so correct lar... So any1 got pro diet method also can share with me o... =)

ala... genting lagi..

2009-05-02T00:11:00.002+08:00

Alright , very expensive blog post...
Like what I always did ...

Not a good day, sponsor Uncle Lim RM300 lim teh just now..
Really quite sad...
Not because of the money that I lost,
I know, gamble mar... sure got win got lose...
Sad because I limited myself to play RM200, but I exceed the limit..
Now only I know how lousy I am to control myself..
Haiz... Feel damn bad...

Anyway, there's always something to cheer me up in life, I know..
Was damn bored so spent lotsa money playing game,
get knew of some new friends,
and won my 1st dota game since.... dunno forgot when already ..
I really didn't count how many games I lost recently,
but I know at least 90% are losing games...
So quite happy lar to play here..
Get a total different experience of playing ... And...
I found the real meaning of gaming afterall =)

K...thx a lot for Sum Yee Mun and Py who left comment to cheer me up..
I really appreciate ....
And now I'm better already ...
Perhaps I was just too stress and now I'm feeling real great,
after a short vacation in Genting...

and anyone out there still having down mood,
really, 1 word for me,
just "CHEER" !!!
Nothing really great deal... I means, everything has it solution ...
most important, do not feeling down when you face the trouble,
think of it, "fan xing" what yourself did (wtf lar, RM15/hour cc taklak chinese),
and belif me, you'll feel much better...

wish every1 a brightful life !! =)

禁忌

2009-04-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

不知道为什么，忽然间脸颊湿湿的，幸好这里没有人。

揉了揉泛红的眼眶，我真的很讨厌这样软弱的自己。多少次告诉自己，我不可以再哭了，我不可以再哭了，可是我却怎样也抑制不了夺眶而出的眼泪。有时候，我真的很害怕，可是却找不到任何一个人，可以和我一起承担这样的恐惧。这种恐惧，是绝对的，甚至让我现在什么也做不了，即使现在是上班时间。人来人往的办公室，我卑微地躲在一个角落，只希望不要有人发现我在这里，可以让我冷静一下。

我真的不要再这样了，就好像当头被浇了桶冷水一样，即使外面是炎炎夏日，我还是感觉到了背椎一凉。我，真的很害怕，很害怕，可是就是这样的无助，彷徨……我不知道该怎样去处理这样的事情，即使我是这样的足智多谋。我举起了脚，却一步都不敢踏出去。或许，真的有一些禁忌，是永远不该去触碰；一旦逾越了预设的界限，很多事情都回不了头，我该知道的，可是，不管有意还是无心，或许，我已经犯了一个很大的错。

如果只能在这里留下我的最后一句话，我只会说，对不起。

突然好想你

2009-04-22T12:28:00.003+08:00

这几天，忽然变得好安静。

从来都不是一个内向的人，可是最近，真的只像好好地静一静。

当身边没有朋友的时候，我才知道，原来自己是那么的孤单。每天只是自己一个人，静静地做着自己的东西，听着 MP3 ，原来，感觉还真不是一般的难受。一直告诉自己，刘伟康，可以的，三个月罢了，忍一忍就过去了，可是以后呢？我害怕的，不是这三个月，而是一年又三个月后的别离。以后是不是也这样呢 ?

原来，这就是孤独的味道。

听着五月天的“突然好想你”，还真是来得合时宜的歌。

突然好想你五月天
最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今终於让自已属於我自已
只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲变成两部悲伤的电影
为什麽你带我走过最难忘的旅行然後
留下最痛的纪念品

我们
那麽甜那麽美那麽相信那麽疯那麽热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛着不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决定自己过没有你
却又突然听到你的消息

I Will Always Love You

2009-04-19T00:18:00.004+08:00

星光 4 的孙碧娜，让我对这首歌很有印象。
细细咀嚼了歌词，才发现，
我好喜欢它。

或许，很多事情不管过程怎样，
结果都是殊途同归。
人，不能胜天，连自己，也胜不了....

我不明白，为什么，我再怎么努力都没有用？
为什么，结果永远都是一样？
这是给我自己的最后一次机会。
做不到，我，就会自己走开 .....

Whitney Houston - I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

(Instrumental solo)

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

1 day holiday ..

2009-04-16T12:52:00.004+08:00

I knew it, 1 day I will be sitting in Central Control Room to update my blog. *Yawn*, working is boring afterall, seems like no one really satisfy their IT life. But, it is still different when really going out to work later on, i guess. Now memang tak kisah curi tulang a bit lar, people also won't scold you (I was reading novel the whole morning =.= ) , but when start working they sure will squeeeze you like how you squeeeeze the orange when making orange juice, I guess. Haiz, feeling depress... I really want some work instead of just walking around here and there like a tourist in the power plant. Some more those pictures are so "private and confidential" that I can only use them for my report nia... wTF? What so special o actually, people want share those picture with my friends also can't meh... Haiz...

Nevermind, Thursday already, weekend is coming again !! This week seems passed thru' very fast as we got 1 day holiday on Weds ( Melacca one lar... ) , so I went to KL find Min they all. Didn't really do many things, as they also got work. Right after I finish working on Tues, I went to KL. Really affected by "Fast & Furious 4 " , I took only like about 1.5 hours to drive there ... And when reach I was like... Wow ... LOL ... (lucky never kena saman)

Then went eat shabu-shabu with Shy Lin (who claimed herself to be the prettiest girl in her department) and Ah Lam (who was as quiet as usual >.< ) . Long time never eat so sepuas-puas already but after they change the location of their shop, I think their custormers also getting lesser liaw, that's why the food's variety like less jor also. After back, DOTA !! LOL actually not that long never play dota lar, but this few days so boring, so really very happy lo when can game with friends. Thanks o min, wh .... and forgot who else played liaw. U guys so tired working still accompany me play game, I touching MAX lar !!

Nothing much on Weds, got something to do ... Secret :P

But was glad as I happen to "pass by" The Gardens so I went to Alexis and bought their cakes. Actually also people from lowyat.net tell me the cake there is nice one lar ... Since I'm looking for the best cake in Malaysia, so surely have to try it lo ... I bought 3 slices, which are Tiramisu, Blueberry cheese and ..... forgot what name already. That girl tell me they are famous with their Tiramisu and that ... forgot what name already punya cake o ... Erm.. The price is a bit high, forgot about the other 2 but Tiramisu is RM15.50 before taxes, just checked from forum xD

Only had chance to taste the Tiramisu. Was really nice when it fresh, not so tasty when leave it overnight as the nuts outside no longer crunchy. But the cake was really 1 of the best that I ever ate, it was sooooo soft and fluffy. It's much better compare to Secret Recipe's. It worth the price but somehow I think, it is still not the best in Malaysia. Guess I've to work harder searching for more delicious cakes ... :P

Night, went to Cannaugh Pasar Malam. It has been quite long since I last went there so was really excited ! Many foods there but I didn't really eat a lot I guess, mou ban fat, fat already mar... After pasar malam then terus drove back to Melacca lo ... Really tiring MAX lar but no choice lo, have to work mar ...

Thanks every1 for accompany me when I go go KL (especially min coz I kacau-ed him most lol ) ... Really thanks ...

K lar... Working again !! C ya every1 !!

挫折

2009-04-15T00:03:00.004+08:00

坐在电脑前好久好久，我竟然连开始的第一个句子都无法完成。是环境吗？不可能吧，这里可是阿孙的房间呢！多少都应该沾染点他的文艺气息吧？是太就没有用华文来更新我的部落格了吗？也许。我也不知道。只是脑袋好像阻塞了一样，多少让我有点老人痴呆的恐惧。反正闲来无事，还是来写点什么比较好吧?

对于我这样一个外貌不突出的人来说，要让别人对自己有些什么记忆点，就要有一样过人的才华。我知道，体育我不行，读书我也不是那块料。曾几何时，我几乎是老师们、朋友们眼中华文算不错的同学了。说真的，那时候的我还真不是盖的，随随便便下笔写就洋洋洒洒上千字，笔也没停一下、眉头也没皱一下。只可惜，量是够了，质却差得远。我知道，写作不是我可以捞的那一块。我口才不好，可是我努力练习，甚至时时刻刻在脑海中模拟和人对答，辩论不同的问题，和技巧。的确，辩论曾经在我中学时候写下了辉煌的一页。可是，上了大学后，我才知道，天外有天，人外有人。诚然，一山还有一山高。我渐渐发现自己有很多的不足，可是，我却胆怯了。我知道，我甚至没有办法说服自己把这么多时间、心思花在辩论上。过去的荣耀也正式画上了句点。

静静坐下来，仔细一想，在我放弃了最后一样自己能够发展的专长后，上了大学后的自己原来一无所长。大学 4 年了，我没有特别的兴趣，没有特别的专长。甚至，我没有特别好的朋友，也没有特别不好的。和旧同学没有不联络，可是也没有特地联络。吃饭没有特别喜好，可是却又什么都吃。一切似乎都那么中庸，那么简单，平淡得好像隔了层膜的湖水一般，刮风下雨也激不起一丝涟漪。甚至渐渐，忘记了，自己原来是怎样的。我不知道为什么自己会变成这样子，可是我知道这样的演变就是大家说的“宅”。宅没有什么不好，可是我很羡慕那些宅男宅女，羡慕他们有自己至少还有自己的那么一项专长 - 对动漫/电玩的了解。我，真的是一无所长。

加上最近开始 IT 碰到越来越多的挫折，有种自卑的感觉慢慢在心里蔓延。我不是不能够接受别人批评的人，也不是受不了打击的温室里的小花，可是，当这种感觉累计到一定的程度的时候，它，真的就会这样地爆发，然后一发不可收拾。工作上，虽然很多人感觉都很愿意教，可是，总感觉他们觉得我们很累赘，读了这么多书可是什么也不懂。以前，总喜欢拿 “自己没有学过” 来当借口，可是我发现，这样的借口现在连自己都骗不了自己了。虽然比起别人的工作，我的工作环境，工钱，工作内容都好很多，可是，再怎么好也弥补不了这种挫折感。私底下，又有朋友总喜欢拿我来开玩笑。虽然，不是恶意的，可是说多了，总有种在伤口上撒盐巴的感觉，很不舒服、很痛。

或许，我真的该学会怎样去看开，怎样不把一件芝麻绿豆的小事去放大。或许，除了在新环境吸收更多专业的知识，我还应该努力学习怎样做一个新的人。我的脾气很暴躁，就和我父亲一样，加上自己原本就急性，所以比起父亲我可以说是青出于蓝而胜于蓝。可是，我可以改。我的人很懒惰，很多事情都想依赖别人完成。可是，我可以改。我知道，很多事情，很多东西，只要一个人愿意，他都可以改。可是，也有些缺点，是天生的，是不能改的……

或许，总有一天，会有一个人明白，我真的真的，只是很简单，很单纯的一个人。

说得太多了，想必是受了阿孙文艺气息熏陶了整夜。也好，待会儿多装点回去。

Industrial Training 1

2009-04-11T20:20:00.010+08:00

Hai yo... sudah 1 week never online ...
feel like just came out from kampung liddat ..

Had my first week of Industrial Training ( IT ) ...
Wasn't that bad actually, I have another Malay girl colleague - Rosliza
She's quite cute .. :P

She is Melaka people, so last Weds she brought us to Pahlawan Shopping Complex (not sure izzit the name, is in Melaka one lar, we normally call it Pahlawan) watch movie ..

We watched "Fast & Furious 4" , was quite nice, i guess :P
except for wearing formal and safety boot to watch movie really look a lil stupid lo..

Actually our IT is more to learning type lar ...
I guess they got nothing much for us to do , just tolong sini sana sikit ..
Erm, actually our "boss" here isn't 1 person lar ..
Is like... our Power station manager also boss ...
Other senior managers also boss..
All section head also boss ...
It's more like when our schedule has session with that guy, then he/she is boss lar !
Then they don't really have work for us lo... Just give us assignment ..
Afterall they just want us to learn thing lar ....
My first assignment is to sort our the local gauges for our TG2's CCGT power plant ...
Btw, because we're learning so much about generator , turbines bla bla ME thing,
I think my ME knowledge increase drastically in 1 week time already !!
BWUAH HAH HAH HAH !!

My working place ...
1 thing very pity is , we don't have our own desk / PC ,
then we terpaksa "merayau" at their "Filing room" (something like library) when we are free..
And in fact.... We got damn much free time last week...
Is like .... go work place to chit chat only ...
When thirsty some more can go make free nescafe tim :P

But 1 thing very sien is they like to ask damn lots question ...
Like my boss if pass by and see this , sure happen something liddat :

Boss : you know what is this ?
Leo : erps.... TG2's general layout lo....
Boss : Ya lar... I means.. which part.. ?
Leo : erps.... Boiler... ?
Boss : Correct .... You know what is boiler for .... ?
Leo : erps.......

Correct, this is 1 thing I feel quite stress about lo......
Although they wont like tease at you if you cant answer lar...
But feel very nervous also each time when they start asking question ...
AND they really like to do it when they got nothing to do ,
eg : when they go bancuh kopi and pass by, etc ...

Oh ya, and we visited power plant last week !!
I means... we actually went in to go see each part of the gas turbine and steam turbine !!
Of course, not all places can go in lar ... but saw quite many interesting thing also...
Then some place really noisy and we terpaksa wear earmuff,
which is the "chun li" like thing on my helmet lo .....
Cannot take picture because we cant on our handphone inside...
But.... I brought camera this time !! =)
Gonna show you guys some pic next week !!

K lar .... GTG already.. Time is precious ...
Friday 7.30 pm reach Muar, Sunday 3 am have to leave...
Damn sienz lo...
But because they shut down their gas turbine to clean the compressor ,
so they "hope" (which is almost like they want) us to go c lo...
Sunday 6 am, stupiak time and yet we cannot claim OT ...
K lar.. hope can take lots picture back !!
C ya !

p.s. : when we boring, we tend to... talk a lot...

Leng.. high five !

Depress....

2009-04-03T00:35:00.003+08:00

BWUAH HAH HAH HAH !!

Just in case anyone out there don't know, I'm actually quoting the famous laughing style of Don Kanonji（唐. 观音寺) from Japanese Manga Bleach ! Yup, which sounds exactly like.... BWUAH HAH HAH HAH !!

Ok, really quite long never update my blog already, although it has been like... 3-4 days I since I finished my last paper. Wasn't really a bad one , since we were all so well taught by Boon Kar Jie Jie, should can score an A or at least A- . But other papers ... Haiz... Not gonna think about it for now, just wait for result to come out bax ....

Feel very sienz now , as 5 more hours later I gonna say bubye to Muar, internet and my dogs and go for stupiak industrial training at Kampung Ulu Teluk Gong. Really "gong" one , build at such an Ulu place that don't even have 3G service. I gonna die because taklak internet soon.

Guys, and girls , don't miss me when I'm gone, as I know sum1 surely does =)

I'll be back, in 1 week time telling you guys and girls everything happen there, if I'm still alive by then. Just keep in tune and check back next weekend ^^

C ya !!

最后...

2009-04-01T07:58:00.003+08:00

终于，考试过得七七八八，连最难熬的 3 天连考也挨过去了。

以为自己会很开心，但是没有。虽然最后一科多了一天休息，可是感觉时间永远不够用，自己却又越来越不专心。什么都不理，昨天靠完试后，回家就抱头大睡，补一补三天不断灌咖啡的痛苦。虽然之前这三科，我的准备其实都还蛮充足的，可是心里总是有种忐忑不安的感觉，结果连续 3 天都没有睡好，甚至试过彻夜不眠就跑去考试。心知肚明，这次考试应该又会回到以前那种不上不下的水准，上个 sem 的好成绩毕竟也是一个意外，或者，应该说是奇迹。可能之前做的好事多，上天就免了我 “UNITEN 唯一一个没有拿过 dean list 的华人 scholars ” 之名吧。好运用完了，这个 sem 当然就好像 12 点过后的灰姑娘般被打回原型咯。

昨天和维坚一起吃午餐，在考试之前。很久没有一起吃饭了，所以当没有话题聊的时候，真的有些尴尬。其实他是我一个很奇怪的朋友。不是说他的人奇怪，而是说我们的关系很奇怪。说熟，其实我和他也没有很熟，毕竟不是那种会谈心的朋友。可是，如果说不熟，却又好像说不过去。可能是我在 UNITEN 的朋友，实在太少吧。或者是说，知心的朋友，实在太少。看到朋友 msn 放着这样的一段话 : “真正的好朋友，并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题，而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬。” 然后我发现，就拿以前中学的同学来说，好多都好久没有联络了，可是就是不知道为什么，好像真的当一起出去喝茶没有什么东西聊的时候（好像也很少发生），其实也不会太怪。而上了大学，这样的朋友却已经屈指可数了。

不过，身边的确是有好些人很好，很会关心人的朋友。还是很感谢他们陪我度过了很多大学时期的风风雨雨。之前，有位朋友告诉我们：“我朋友在 msn 称赞我是一个会关心朋友，很好的朋友。” 我们对他嗤之以鼻。在这里，还真的是要道个歉，我相信大家都没有恶意，只是在开玩笑罢了。你也不要妄自菲薄，至少，对我而言，你真的是一个很会关心周遭朋友的人，也是我认识的那么多朋友之中人最会关心别人的。即使有时候你表达方式很像在 “酸” 人，可是我绝对相信你的本意是好的。不然之前，也不会看到有 A, B, C, D 写给朋友的一封信了不是吗？

无论如何，最后一科还是要努力。是该收拾心情，好好读书了，虽然心里再怎么抗拒。收拾了家当，要到图书馆 camp 了。祝大家的最后一科 good luck have fun 吧 !!

ROAR !!! EXAM SPREE !!!

2009-03-29T05:14:00.010+08:00

Roar !! Glad that I'm still alive here ... xD

Gonna have my Econ FINAL in 4 hours time ...
tik tak tik tak tik tak ... this remind me of Madonna's song...
"we only got 4 minutes to save the world ~~ "
Yeah, I only got 4 hours to save my Econs but I'm wasting quarter of it typing blog here =.=

Anyway, just feel like to rest a while ...
Not really in mood to study also waking up so early ..
Haiz... Always feel myself very pity...
While my friends all left little subject ,
can sit back and start goyang goyang their kaki,
I have to face my exam spree !! ROAR !!! This feeling sucks ...
But I know they "susah time" already over lar.. my turn now.. =(
Don't know since when, the kiasu feeling when I was in secondary school start to get back lil bit by lil bit ....
At least now I will feel worry that I get a lower grade than other people ...
Will even care for the few marks different in carry marks,
or maybe the few question that I wrong in Kaunseling Final ....
Not really know is it a good thing or not, but at least this start to force me study ...
I guess.... it's ok for now ..

Agrr... Really looking forward Thursday to come !!!
I gonna finish Semicon Final , say bye bye to dear Boon Kar sis ,

<< dear Boon Kar jie jie

then have my SUPER DUPER GREAT CELEBRATION !!
waKakakakakax !!
2 plans now ... Shy Lin suggest de lar ...
First is Neway's K buffet...
as she wants to sing k so much lol !!
And I told her greenbox's k buffet sux MAX !
Then second plan, she suggested go Tony Roma @ Midvalley ...
after that we can go Alexis @ The Garden eat their cake ( really nice MAX, i suggest de ),
or eat BASKIN ROBBIN !! EAT EAT EAT !! hehehehe !!
Both sounds nice also, most important is I'm with all the friends ...
Then can be very happy le.... hahax !!
Aih... maybe this is the last gathering with friends here in 3 months time liaw ...
Then have to suffer 3 months at kampung ulu for my industrial training without internet !!
Scary MAX ... Don't know how I'm going to survive this 3 months... haiz...

Anyway, just hope able to jio people after semicon test on Thursday ba ..
Since anyhow I've to go back to muar on Friday.. >.<''
Contacted Hui Hao and Ah Pang ... Long time never see them already...
Maybe will have a short gathering with them during the weekend ba ...
Planned going back to PASCA to visit Ms.Kanaga and Wilson also, but seems no time.. =(
Ben they all "should will" jio yum cha also ..
Then have to go buy things needed during industrial training ...
Next weekend really bz MAX !!

Alright !! Shall stop now ...
gonna do my final revision for Econs ...
eat porridge or eat rice jiu see the revision now liaw !!

Good luck guys and girls !!!
Final 顺顺利利 ahh !!! CHIONG ahhhhh .....

Aunty : 加油 !!

2009-03-22T22:10:00.002+08:00

其实，我超讨厌考试的。

也对啦，我就不信有多少人真的那么喜欢考试，
最多最多，也是对考试没有什么特别的感觉罢了，
不过相信那也是和我一样，对考试感觉到麻木了。
以前还好，不过这个 sem ，几乎科科都要考试，quiz 又多到死，
真的不 “冷感” 也难。
很任性地想，干脆不要读好了。
不要管它，时间到了，东西收一收就去考试算了。
可是，我孬。我不敢。
所以，我还是乖乖地坐在这里读书。

昨天早上，我超强的，竟然耐到 7 点多还没睡。
先不要佩服我，我没有读通宵的能耐，
不过是彻夜用 youtube 追看完了电视剧 — “小娘惹” 。
是新加坡电视剧来的，很好看耶！！
想不到新加坡戏有这么好的剧情，
而且整出戏还介绍了很多 baba 和 nyonya 的东西,
真的很值得看的!
结果，肚子超饿的，跑出去 taman 外面打包。
换作平时我一定都在外面吃的，不过最近要控制自己少喝咖啡，
所以就随便打包回来吃了。
去买了分报纸，报摊 aunty 是个 30 多 40岁的单亲妈妈。

aunty ：“ leng zai ，很久没有看到你了 hor ... ”
我：“是咯是咯，平时很少早起嘛 .... 最近考试才比较早 ... ”
aunty : “ 是哦，考试啊？几时考？ ”
我：“哦哦哦.... 就这两个礼拜咯... ”
aunty : “哇，考两个礼拜啊？！” (吐吐舌头)
我：“哈哈... 没有啦，不是每天考... ”
aunty ：“ooo .. 好... 那你加油哦 ... ”

只是很普通的一段对话，可是令人感觉心里暖暖的。
小地方有个好处，就是人和人感觉都比较亲近，
不会像 KL ，虽然人来人往很多人，可是感觉每个人都冷冷的。
有 aunty 的加油帮我加持，好吧，今天要更努力才行！

我的早餐 + 精神粮食....

结果..... 吃饱就睡了。 =.=''

好吧，晚上还是努力读书。

咖啡和面包少不了，因为肚子饿我就读不进脑嘛 ~
好啦，该加油咯！

Final 又来了 ....

2009-03-21T16:45:00.003+08:00

昨天考了该死的 Com sys lab ....
虽然只占了30% ，可是还是对于最后的 grading 有很大的影响……
再怎么不愿意，再怎么懒，终究还是得努力一番。
读到了半夜 2-3 点，疲倦死了，
虽然很多东西还没有读进脑，不过 theory 这么多，
我想也没把全部背熟了，只好明天兵来将挡，水来土掩吧！
辗转难免，即使躺在我新买的 Getha 枕头上。
翻来覆去了快一个多小时，最后我放弃了，
起床看看 notes 、看看戏。
是很疲倦地趴在桌子上看的，却怎么也睡不着，
难道这就是所谓的 “考试前焦虑症”？
很久没有彻夜不眠然后去考试了，尤其是这种需要背很多东西的考试，
这样实在很不好，不过既然失眠了，也没办法咯。
挨到 6 点多，跑出去吃了点东西，喝了被 O 到不行的 kopi-O kosong ，
终于精神了。

最后再温习了一下，才去考试。
不过，考试出得很广，theory, calculation, block diagram,
objective , subjective , true and false ,
什么可以出的都出了，一共 10 题，只有一个半小时。
（不过后来听说别的 section 有 2 个小时，不知道为什么我们只有一个半）
其实也没关系，能够答的我都答了，大概一个小时就完成了。
知道自己没有考得很好，不过希望我的 carry marks 能够带领我拿 A 吧。

考试中发生了一个小插曲，绝对是真的，也是原创，不要说我抄袭哦！

话说，我一直是一个很坏脾气的人，
和我比较亲密的朋友们都知道。
我的 EQ 不高，很有可能会随时爆发，任何时间、地点。

刚开始回答考卷时，情况还算好。
但是过了十分钟，我对于问题有点迷惑。
我试图集中精神思考，可是课室里一直有一种桌子发出 "ehk ehk ehk" 的声音，
还有一些马来人 gossip 的声音，应该是在 “讨论” 。

我看了又看考卷，可是，还是不能集中。

我很好奇，为什么老师可以没有听到那些声音。
班上其他人也好像没有听到。
好像只有我听到罢了。
桌子吵就算了，那些人越讨论越热烈，好像不是考试一样。
真的好吵，就像我星期三去的 Cheras Connaught pasar malam 一样，
唯一的不同是，
这里没有好吃的食物，也没有好看的翻版鞋子，
只有烦躁的，在回答考卷的我。

我要怪国能大学，因为他们的桌子很烂，考试会 "ehk ehk ehk"
怪国能大学的老师在考试前没有说明考试格式
怪国能大学的 lab final 不能够在水准比较高的 exam hall 进行
怪国能大学的筛选不够严格，才有这种品质差的马来学生
怪国能大学的学生不够自觉，才会在 final 中作弊 !!

庆幸自己本来会的也不多，所以还不算有太大的影响，
唯一不爽的是那些马来人这么公开地讨论，
虽然我觉得他们两个讨论了考得应该也不会比我好，
可是就是不爽他们。
两个 20 多岁的大学生却不知道考这种 final paper 应有的自觉，
quiz 讨论就算了，final 也这样做？
真应该为自己感到羞耻？

考试过了，就不去想它了吧！
活该他们永远不会进步 :P

即将考 final 了，来分析一下目前的局势 :

DSP 庆幸有 quiz 帮忙把 carry marks 拉上来了很多，
弥补了 test 考差了的分数。
不过 DSP 的 final 有 60 分那么多，
还是要多下点功夫的。
虽然帮补不了其他科，不过应该也不会太拖累吧！

Semicon 在文佳姐姐 (Boon Kar) 大力的帮助下，
carry marks 十分耀眼，虽然不是全班最高的啦，
不过也算很不错了。
可惜这次 final 的 tips 笼统了一点。
不过如果平时上课多注意她说 "very important" 的问题，
应该也 ok 的吧！

Com sys 真的很少 example，要多做练习也不可以。
虽然说 project 在佛贤的帮助下成功化险为夷，
可是平时 quiz 做得不太好，test 也没有特别高，
看来这科是极充满变数的一科。

Kaunseling & kerja social ，Nesh 的人还不错，
carry marks 感觉上也不错，
final 的 tips 也给得很不错，
看来，不错。 hehe ...
可以拿来 cover 我的 com sys... =)

Econs .... 死定了....
把超容易的 test 2 搞砸过后，心里一直觉得很不安。
那天 revision 时看了很多长长的问题，
几乎... 都不太会做。
其他科目又都泥菩萨过江，自身难保，
看来这个 sem ，注定给这科害惨了 .....

好了，废话不多说，读书最实际！
大家加油！！！

孤独

2009-03-19T18:36:00.007+08:00

偶然看到了这样的一篇文章：

认识孤独吗?

孤独是一个人睁着眼睛,呆呆得望着白色天花板

孤独是一个人坐在那儿,脑子里却一片空白

孤独是一个人坐在公车上,却不知道终点站在哪里

孤独是无聊得挂着QQ,却不知道应该和谁聊些什么

孤独是感冒时，自己对自己说要多喝白开水

孤独是委屈时，只能忍住眼泪，告诉自己不能哭

孤独是发出了N条短信,却没有得到一条回复

孤独是翻遍了手机里的电话薄,却不知道电话要打给谁

孤独是握着电视摇控器,一分钟换了60个台

孤独是傻傻地看着手机,希望铃声这时响起

孤独是望着窗外，看着嬉戏的小孩，觉得与他们的距离好远

孤独是对着玩具娃娃说话，却得不到回答

孤独是觉着累了的时候，只有钟表声陪伴你

孤独是你以为幸福快来了，可是它离你还很远

孤独是当你有话想说的时候，却只能在心里说给自己

孤独是站在大街上，看着陌生的人群莫明其妙地来来往往

孤独是站在十字路口，找不到自己的路应该是哪条

孤独是面对着拥挤的车流，喧闹的人群，而自己却如空气般存在于城市上空

从表面特征来看，至少，我还不算孤独。

可是，最近，总觉得……好寂寞。

喜欢 x 习惯

2009-03-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

很长的一段时间，几乎在每天早上去上课之前，
我都会听在 taman 外面的 7-11 买罐紫色的 Nescafe Mocha 喝，
再去上课。
一开始只是纯粹的喜欢喝，觉得每天能够喝上一罐，挺幸福的说。
后来，只要一天没有喝，就会觉得自己挺累的，不能专心上课。
情况持续到最近，刚好得了点小感冒，
开始不喝咖啡，改喝果汁。
才知道，原来自己真的没有那么爱喝 nescafe mocha ，
只是喝着喝着，从一开始的喜欢，慢慢变成了习惯。

其实，人生有很多事情，其实我们都已经当成了习惯。
应该说，从一开始的喜欢，变成了习惯。
就算，真的不喜欢了，还是逼不得以地去做着同样的事情，
自己却完全不能左右。

真的，我该认清楚，到底什么是喜欢，什么是习惯了……

梁一貞 < 想念 >

2009-03-15T18:18:00.005+08:00

其实，一直会喜欢 “超级星光大道 4 ” 的梁一贞，
是听过她的一首《想念》。

梁一貞　　　　< 想念 >

如果我們沒有遇見　現在就會快樂一點
我看不見　你的雙眼　心就快碎破不全
自己坐在空盪房間　想著全是你的笑臉
我分不清是苦是甜　要多久才會厭倦

時間沒有帶走你給我的一切

今天似乎特別明顯

像你在我身邊　親吻著我的臉

在孤獨的夜

眼淚提醒著我對自己好一點

就算需要很多勇氣

我會試著學習　我會繼續努力

把你放心裡　不再去想你

我　想念你

時間沒有帶走你給我的一切

今天似乎特別明顯

像你在我身邊親吻著我的臉

在孤獨的夜

眼淚提醒著我對自己好一點

就算需要很多勇氣

我會試著學習我會繼續努力

把你放心底　不再去想你

一些朋友说 : “ 每次看到你 po 歌词，我就跳过不看了。”
其实，我会 po 这些歌词，除了因为这些歌词写得很好以外，
也觉得这些歌词代表了我当下的心情。
可能是整首歌，可能是一小段，甚至可能只是其中的一句。
写得好的歌词加上写得好的曲，真的能够唱到人的心坎去。
我不是一个感性的人，可是却常常听这首歌听到流泪，
就好像现在一样……
这里和大家分享一下吧……

Kerja Social Project ---- 活动当天篇

2009-03-13T23:06:00.016+08:00

啊！！当我把照片都 upload 完的时候，心里还真有几分感动... T.T
和之前两篇一样，大家看看照片就好吧....
我超懒的，打字都懒惰 ~.~ ''

话说，就在活动当天，
我、祖民、秉耀和伟良一大早就醒了，到我 taman 外面的咖啡店吃早餐。
可能是超严重的睡眠不足吧，总有点食不知味的感觉。
之前马来人告诉我们，6.30 要在 library ATM 集合，7　点出发。
我们迟到了 10 分钟。
不过，不要紧，也只有一为马来女同学到罢了。

反正也没事情做，就拍点照片咯 ~

战车 ......

Azizi ... 热情赞助我们他的 ADSL .... 虽然他长得这个样子，可是人还不坏啦 ~

时间是7 点多，老师匆匆赶来了。
他说 : “ Ada orang pakai Celcom? Celcom service down eh.... ”
意思大概是说，celcom service down ，没有人 morning call 醒他。
而我们又在那里浪费了很多时间。
终于，在 7 点多很多很多很多的时候，最后一个马来男子匆匆赶到。
也没有道歉，也没有说什么，就这样，笑笑。
对，只有笑笑而已！
我香蕉他个番石榴，让我们傻傻等了一个小时，就笑？
我笑你个 X !!!

无论再怎么不爽，
一个是老师，也是 deputy dean；
另一个是我们敬爱的 bumiputra，
活动还是要继续，只好分秒必争，马上出发咯 ~
结果 .................
就在前往 PERHILITAN Sungai Dusun 的半路，我们停在了一个 Warung ...
原来，我们的老师要吃早餐....
不是说好早餐就是准备了的饮料和面包吗？
不过，既然他也“不赶时间”，我们就奉陪到底咯 ....

我们 “可爱又亲切” 的老师 ....

大家都没吃... 吃了才的嘛，又困，超没胃口的 ....
p.s. : 那个光头佬就是那个迟到 1 个小时的 ........

终于，有惊无险，我们到达了目的地，
虽然比预定的时间迟了.... “一点点”

PERHILITAN 是干吗的，我也忘记了...
好像就是收容一些保育类动物之类的吧，除了马来貉，
听说还有刺猬和鳄鱼哦！！！
很短的 briefing 过后，我们就开始早上 "volunteery work" ...
负责人首先把我们带到饲养马来貉的栅栏 ...

因为..... 不知道在忙些什么，所以我们只好在栅栏外面等。
其实说 “栅栏” 也有点不妥当，因为那个栅栏也只是马来貉活动的一小个地方，
应该说那时一个 “营区” 更妥当。
得空得空，又拍照咯 ~

活动开始前，先来照张大合照吧！！ =)

国能三大帅哥？

这是竹子吧？祖民说不是 wor ......　你们觉得呢？

他们在看什么？原来，今天的主角　—　马来貉出来了！！
还真是 “千呼万唤始出来，犹抱琵琶半遮面” 呢 ~

其实，蛮丑的...不过，丑得可爱啦 ~
大家都说它是 local 版的 “四不象” ，你们觉得是哪四种呢？
(p.s. : 真正的 “四不像” 指的是麋鹿 )

然后，我们就趁机和它合照咯 ~~

好玩是很好玩啦，不过活动还是得开始。
工作人员用点叶子什么的，就把它引回去了 ...

我们被分成了 3 组，
分别要 “刷刺猬笼的青苔”，“割马来貉栅栏里的杂草” ...
和... 和... 和.... “铲大便” ...
SH*T !! =.=''
本来想说马来貉的尿很臭，割草一定不适合我。
大便太恶心，我也不想干。
还是刷青苔比较好...
结果，还是很不幸地，被派去 “铲大便”！！

进到了 “营区” 里面，可以看到很多马来貉在笼子里，
没有记错的话，这里一共有 13 只，
包括一对世界唯一的 “马来貉双胞胎” ...

虽然可以进来是很难得的经验，可是，里面超臭的...

Ta dang !!! 大便！！

真的是超级恶心的啦！！
不过老师在，我还是迫于无奈地随便铲铲咯....
这里我真的要佩服那些马来人，他们太勇敢了 ... =.=
幸好，也没干多久，天就下起雨来...
得救了 ~
回到他们的笼子那儿，拍了很多照片 ...

马来貉的食物 — 森林里的叶子！！

好懒惰哦 ...

第一次的亲密接触耶！！

后来，祖民他们也来了 ~ 摸摸哦 ~
结果，伟良不敢摸... 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 !!!!!

反正有时间，也去看了看刺猬。
超可爱的，而且他们都好像一直在吃罢了。
很有趣的是，当他们受到惊吓，
他们的刺真的都会站起来耶！！怪吓人的...

雨停了，继续我们的工作。
不过这次我真的完全不愿意靠近大便咯，所以只负责运输大便，
把铲上来打包好的大便都运到外面去。
其实，还蛮重的... =.=''

成品！！一袋袋都是 “金” 啦！！

割草组。超佩服两位马来女同学的，因为，栅栏里真的超臭！

终于，忙了一个早上，放饭咯 ...
午餐其实吃得不是很好。
虽然食物还可以，不过没有地方坐，我们只好都站着吃 ....
午餐后，吃饱太得空，又来拍照咯 ~ 哈哈 ...

长虎牙的马来貉...

祖民讲他的 pose 很像那只白色的 monkey 咯，你们觉得叻？

秉耀说 : 是啦，我的外号就是 “雄鹰” ，亦称 “亚洲第一巨炮” 啦！！

还真是种族和谐呢 ~

下午，友族同胞都去了 sembahyang，我们就在睡觉咯 ~
他们回来后，主办单位给了我们一个蛮短的 ceramah ，
活动就正式结束了！！

离开前的大合照...

对啦，我们种族和谐的嘛～
前面两位就是巾帼不让须眉的两位 “女勇士” 啦 ~

硬要和秉耀合照的奇怪单位负责人 .....

我们的下午茶...
只能说马来人做活动，真的很悠闲 ~

还有不同的饮料呢... =.=''

摆 pose .... 大家都说，我们是 UNITEN 的飞轮海啦！！
偶是吴尊哦！哈哈 ~
（好吧，我认.... 很肥的一樽... >.<'' ）

pose 2 ，伟良玩臭！！说好不看镜头的！！ >.<''
哎呀，jump 得好丑... 怎么好像跪在空中.. >.<''
哇！！！　你要干嘛！！！！！！！

BEST SHOT OF THE DAY !!
最成功的 jumper +　最厉害的 cameraman （区区在下）

double jump !! 失败！ T.T
祖民，我没有你这样 "long lasting" 啦... T.T

结果，只有伟良没有拍到 jump ....
因为他不要和我们一样幼稚... =.=
终于，拍完了这些无聊照片！！我们回家咯！！！！！
说真的，超累又超臭的。
虽然是很难得的经验，不过套句秉耀的话 :

i doubt if u asking me to go wit u again..lolx..

哈哈 ....

Kerja Social Project --- 开档篇

2009-03-13T21:36:00.003+08:00

话说为了资助活动经费严重不足的我们，我们就在 COE Foodcourt 摆了个 booth ，
希望可以赚点蝇头小利吧 ~
我们卖的 “商品” ，包括了 ....

没有很好吃的 Hash Brown ....

马来人准备的 spaghetti （忘了拍照，只有拍到酱，还蛮香的！）

顾 booth 其实是很令人烦躁的，因为 COE food court 那里很闷，
加上油烟味......实在让人不是很 “酥胡” !!
不过，我们还是懂得苦中作乐的 ...
例如，拍些很　“假仙”　的 pose 照 ....

难得吧？本少爷亲自下厨耶！
不过其实这是祖民炸到一半的，我 pose 罢了 .. =)

Ta dang !!!
如果你不知道他是谁，你就真的是逊掉了....
他就是我们这年 .... 相当有名的一个人啦！！ GARY !!!
哈哈...
本来想讲　“最出名”　的，不过好像也没有到这么出名...
他可是本人我的偶像呢！
读书厉害，运动厉害，长得好看，人缘又好，性格和善...
快讲不完了...
连 Gary 都支持我们，真不禁让我超级感动 !!!

好啦，booth 搞了一个星期，就这样结束了！！
过后的星期六就是我们正是活动的日子，到了 PERHILITAN 去...
下篇待续 ......

Kerja Social Project --- 准备篇

2009-03-13T18:49:00.005+08:00

是啦！Kerja Social 的 project 结束了一段日子了，却一直很懒惰 update ....
趁这个周末还算得空，就随便来写写吧！
我们 project 的主要目的其实是关于 Animal Welfare 的...
而这次我们要帮助的动物，就是俗称 “四不像” 的马来貉啦！

大概在不久前的某个星期天，我们几个在 Publicity group 的人就一起在 UNITEN ,
七手八脚地准备设立起我们的活动 booth ......
主要是要和大家介绍一下什么叫马来貉，
也将在接下来的一个星期卖点吃的，赚点活动经费。
这个 booth 主要是由经验丰富的 lpy 和颇有艺术细胞的祖民设计的，
我和伟良充其量也不过是跑跑腿，打打杂……

看他们努力的样子，一旁偷懒得很厉害的我还真有点过意不去……
终于，我们完成了第一个 soft board ，那就是我们卖 Hash Brown 的 board 啦！
看他们得意的 .....

然后是第二哥 soft board .... 都是由祖民画的哦!
还不赖吧....

只是,有些东西看起来怪怪的 ....

好吧,就留给大家一点想象的空间吧!!

终于,时间是晚上 8 点, 我们把 3 个 softboard 都完成了!!
虽然不是很好看,但是对于我们一班新手来说,应该是相当另人满意的成果了!
超懒惰打字的,大家还是看看照片就好吧....
等我有空再 po 更多照片 =)

给朋友的信

2009-03-12T21:25:00.008+08:00

4 个人，写给朋友的一封信 ......

朋友A

没有人是完美的，但，大家都朝着完美前进，虽然，考试被扣了一分，失去了满分，悲伤的不是失去的那一分，而是那努力+时间累积而成的满分，也如春梦般消失了。【1】

常常，我们都会把自己认为对的，施加在别人身上，虽然，过程中可能一些方法可能不是别人能接受的，但大家的出发点，都是好的。往往，因为生活与成长的环境的不同，当事人可能觉得没有什么不妥，甚至觉得是很理所当然的。在某个程度上，着可能是生活上的点点滴滴，对人处事，和对自己缺乏自信心所造成的，他们的不愿意改变，是因为希望有一个角落，是百分百属于自己的，而不是照着世人所为的“对”与“错”去进行。。。。

生活中，课业上，事业里，感情内，每个人都有各自应尽的责任，这是对自己的责任，对人生的承担。可能，在这当下，身边可能有些好友，能者多劳，帮你把些些的问题解决了，但，朋友能倚赖多久？？？上帝很公平的把时间分配了给所有的人，大家都只是拥有那２４小时，大家都有自己的问题与烦恼，要解决、面对，断不能因为一句“我不懂 ”，“我不会”，而要朋友牺牲睡眠、玩乐、社交的时间，来帮自己完成任务，然后，再把那些本来属于朋友的时间，拿来找自我的娱乐、睡睡觉，这妥当吗　？

生命，从小我们就被教育它的重要性，它是宝贵的，有句话说的很好，很贴切，“谁人无父母”，父母带我们来到了这世上，每个父母都是疼爱自己的孩子的，希望他们健康长大。车，是现在最普遍的代步工具之一，出门到哪都会需要到，也许我的技术并不是最好的，但我都尽量专心，小心驾驶，因为，大家的性命都掌握在我的手中，不想因为自己一时的疏忽，而让几个家庭从此都乌云满布，失去了昔日的阳光与笑容。朋友都常会在自己疏于驾驶时，给予忠告。当然，忠言总是逆耳的，在那当下，听起来一定是会感觉到被挑战的，认为是对方不对。身为朋友，若在那当下没有忠告，那就是我的错。。。。。若不止一人都在不同的时间，说了同样的话，那就有深思的必要了，也意味着“没有撞到，没发生车祸就是安全驾驶”这种道理（歪理？）已经不能在被接受了。一名厨师，煮的菜肴，美味与否，是大家都能评论的，无论你是素人、厨师、总统、巴士司机，美味的菜肴还是一样美味，同样的，一个朋友给予驾驶的忠言，并不会因为他驾车年龄、身份、而变得不合理，不被接受。可能，幸运让你侥幸存活直今，也用可能，唯一一次发生交通意外，也就是最后一次了。。。。。

在我很久一前的一篇文章中提到，某朋友告诉我她的一个朋友对她说，到了某个阶段，你会觉得“朋友是拿来利用的”，某个程度上是对的，但，我希望，大家应该秉着“朋友是拿来分享的”的心态来交朋友。虽然交朋友不讲求付出与回报，但以赤子之心，处处为朋友着想为前提去认识一个朋友，才是应有的心态。。。。

【1】（用春梦形容是因为虽然满分已不复然，但它留下的也是值得开心的回忆）

朋友B

或许，我是最没有资格来写这一段的人。

毕竟，我不是最常和你相处的人，而我自己的缺点也不比你少。但。作为一个旁观者，我绝对相信自己的建议，是最客观、最中肯的。或许你看了会觉得很难受，或许这些话对你而言可能很不中听，可是，自古哪有不逆耳的忠言？你应该很庆幸，至少还有这样一群朋友愿意来把他们对你的感想、建议告诉你，即使必须冒着日后尴尬见面的可能性。毕竟，有很多事情，说出来总比隐瞒好。累积着不说，在日后如果一次过爆发，更加的一发不可收拾。这是我的前车之鉴，所以，我懂。

其实，以一个 21 岁的大学生来说，我们应该已经是很独立的人了。虽然这点我做得并没有很成功，可是至少我也很努力在尝试。我知道，家人、朋友，他们也都有着自己的生活，我们不能总是依赖着他们，希望他们无时无刻都可以在我们身边帮助我们，这是不可能的。过度依赖的人永远也不会成长。试想想，如果哪一天真的只剩下你自己一个人了，那你要怎么办？而且，不断地寻求别人来帮助你，只会更增加别人对你的厌恶罢了。当然，在这尝试独立的过程中，还是尽量避免造成别人的困扰比较好。像我常说的，其实，我很讨厌和友族同胞一组，因为他们给了我很不负责任，做事很不“上心”的感觉。如果不是把做的东西迟交给我，就是会在最后一分钟才完成他们的东西，然后又做得一塌糊涂。他们在尝试着独立吗？我不知道。可是我却知道，他们带给了别人很大的困扰。现在，朋友，我既然趟了这浑水，自然也不便来评论你。不过，我希望你抿心自问，身边是不是越来越少人愿意和你共事了？和别人共事时，是不是总闹出很多不愉快？
还有一件事，是性格。

或许，一些人天生就内向。他们可能不擅交际，可是，他们至少都还会参与朋友的生活。有时候，内向不是不好，恋家也算是一种优点，可是如果总是断然拒绝朋友，那就不可以怪别人不愿意找你，而是你自己断了自己的后路。试想想，如果你每次找一个朋友出去都被拒绝，久而久之你还会要约他吗？不要怪别人预先设定了你不要去出去的决定，先想想是什么让他们有这样的想法的？

别急着答我。慢慢想，仔细观察。

如果真的觉得这样，是时候该好好改改自己的性格了吧？

加油，好吗？

朋友C

我出生在一个小康之家，从小到大，父母很关心我。衣，食，住，行，父母都照顾地无微不至。慢慢长大以后，由于习惯依赖于父母，很多东西都不懂得如何去处置。过去将近四年的大学生涯里，我领悟了很多，学习了很多。如果要用文字一一表达，真的很困难，或许可以说是一种成长并时时自我检讨的过程吧！

开始在大学住的日子，我的手臂偶尔会出现红斑，非常痒！这是因为个人的卫生及居住的环境卫生所致，我开始会注意自己的卫生了，这回不可能还要劳烦母亲来宿舍替我打扫吧！都大学了，是个青年了，应该有一点自己要负的责任才对。因此，进这两年来，每每母亲在开学时要来替我打扫宿舍时，我都一一拒绝了。他也没想想我已经快要二十二岁了，难道这么简单的卫生问题都不懂吗？有时真的有点难为情，都已经那么大了嘛……自己知道应该注意卫生问题后，每个星期都会扫一下房间；但我的东西有点多，所以好像怎么收拾都有点乱..lolx..但至少干净就是了。

自从交了女朋友后，才知道什么是责任感。真的不是说你要还是不要，而是你必须了。当然，我坦诚认同，交女朋友并非那么简单。我是顾好了自己才交女友的，想象如果你的女友被你拥抱的同时，竟然看到你肩膀上有头皮削，多恶心！如果他给面子的话，大概会问问，“咦，没用晴丝（sunsilk anti-dandruf）吗？或许我们没发觉，其实与朋友的相处中也需要责任感的存在。比如，‘去唱k吧！’，‘你们去，我不去；那天我也没答应啊’，对，没错，没答应，但听下去的人会觉得很显，你很难叫。这也是比较私人类型，而学业类型大概是一起做project.我在变得很讨厌做project,真的！原因是工作量常因人而异。朋友曾经告诉我，“能力越大，责任越大”。是真的？也有朋友告诉我，‘我们学的，了解的都一样，大家都在同样一个起跑点开始，你不会的，我也不会’。对于这番话，我深感同意！但我想，至少不会，也尝试花点心思，时间去学习，去研究，什么都没做就来借朋友的抄，或者是把问题再抛回给projectmate，真的很不负责任，如果是别人这样对你，你是怎么想？现在只是assignment，以后做工时是你的饭碗，你的人格，人家对你的价值观，你可以不在乎，但如果你不介意人家怎样看你，希望当每个人isolate 你时，觉得你很逊时，你还可以诺无其事的继续这样下去。

最近，有一个朋友面对很困扰的”抄assignment问题”，他的朋友很多都在同一时间(last minute la) 向他借功课来抄，看到他的样子，可以了解到他的感受。相同的如果是我，真的也很难做。一份自己辛辛苦苦做的assignment就这样的“借我，谢谢！” 被拿去，酝酿了耐心，时间，研究的过程及精神原来只值四个字，真的会有点不爽。借会不爽，不借好像很不好，怎么办？朋友的关系有时真的很难明了。我是一个对错分明的人，因此有时会压抑不住自己的情绪去“吊”（我找不到那个真正的diao）人。其实真的发生了，还好朋友都了解并包容我；想说的是，朋友的包容也有一个限度，当他们觉得我太辣，容易“吊”人，他们也就拿我来开玩笑，借用另一个方式告诉我，所以我也尽量压抑，不去“吊”当事人，去找别人倾诉就好了…lolx..

关心自己的朋友，会想办法告诉你你的缺点，让你知道，希望你能领悟并检讨；如果真的只是普通朋友，你是好是坏都不管他的事，他睬你都傻！给朋友的话，这篇文字，没针对谁，没设定对象，皆有感而发，如果你对号入座，觉得是你的话，不用介怀，想想是否应该改变就是了。加油！

朋友D

朋友的事，往往很复杂。

我是一个珍惜朋友，保护朋友的人，但是，保护的界限毕竟有拘。或许说我自私也好，蛮横也好，自我中心也好，对于我的朋友，我会希望他们过得更好，所以，会透过很多方式，去引导他们往某个我希望他们前往的方向走。

对，我明白每个人有自己选择的意愿和权力。

只是，有时候我会觉得，其实你或许可以是更好的一个人，却为何要一直待在一个仅有自己，也只有自己的世界里呢？甚至不止我一人如此认为。简单附括一句我常说的话，一个人说你不对劲，也许那个人是错的；两个说你不对劲，或者你还可以坚持自己的立场；但是当几乎所有的人都这么认为的时候，你是否有想过，真的是自己不对劲呢？

每个人的生活骤然不同，路途并不一致，这我明了，只是，以一位朋友的立场，我们都希望你可以获得更好的。与其让你沉迷在一条只会继续颠沛迷离的道路上，不如周遭做朋友的当个坏人，纵使让你讨厌让你烦，也决意去提点。

因为是朋友，因为想你过得更好，所以才三番四次地说你。

纵使方式不对，纵使并不悦耳，但是，出发点都为你而设，你要懂得去聆听，去接纳，好好深思熟虑，再决定你是否还仍然继续对人生与友情如此奢侈下去。

朋友依然在这里，有心想改，我们亦不会走开。没有人曾言过这是一条易走的路，没有人诉过跌倒就不必再爬起来；只有人说，无论什么事，朋友一直都在。

这篇文字，没针对谁，没设定对象，皆有感而发。

Sad.. I can't forgive myself... =(

2009-03-11T22:15:00.002+08:00

Just had my econ test 2 ...

Honestly, the question really easy until cannot liaw ...
As long as you look thru the notes before going into the exam hall,
there's no reason that you cannot answer the question.
But, I spoiled the test, due to many careless mistake...
HAiz... I did check le before come out exam, still ....
Feeling so sad now ...
If the question is very tough then don't know do still won't feel so sad ...
But the question all so easy one ... And I cannot score ...
No excuse for myself ... I can't think of a reason to forgive myself ...

Wish all my friends that having exam tomorrow good luck ...
No careless mistake + question easy easy = score baik baik... =)

好介绍啊！！

2009-03-11T18:07:00.003+08:00

好介绍！！好介绍喂！！！！！！
在 Jia Yee 的 blog 看到了她之前去 Xenri 吃日本餐 buffet ，
竟然才花了RM45 ++ 而已！！！
原来 Xenri 有 promotion ，现在 weekend 的 buffet 有半价啦！！
不过没有包括饮料咯……
谁要去？？

可以看看 jia yee 的 blog :
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/jiayee1986/14683088

好傻，好天真

2009-03-11T01:08:00.004+08:00

从祖民那儿知道了阿娇上了《志云饭局》之后，我也下载了来看。
娇说：“两个人拍拖，一段感情，谁没有试过天真和傻？爱情会蒙蔽了一个人的…… 我天真和傻不是因为拍了这些照片，而是因为这点感情。”

其实，说得也对。很多时候，爱情真的是会让人盲目的，
让人奋不顾身地去做一些事情。
但是，事后回想，真的会让人觉得，以前做过的事情很傻，
不明白从前的自己为什么会去做这一些事情。
当然，这里指的不是阿娇，还有很多人。

例如，有时候，在爱情里面比较弱势的一方渐渐地失去自我，
成了 “女友奴” 或 “男友奴” 。
不管伴侣说的是什么，他们都得唯命是从，
即使违反了自己原本的意愿，
他们却连吭也不敢吭一声。
或许，在他们的眼里，这样的和谐叫作幸福和甜蜜。
然而在别人的眼里，这样的情况时可悲的。
更可悲的是当当事人察觉了这样的情况，却不敢改变现状。
他们害怕，害怕任何一次的反抗都将成为彼此间的争吵，
害怕对方不再满意自己而另觅良伴，
害怕将永远失去自己所爱的人。
最后，他们只好自己默默忍受着痛苦，
直到彼此间感情慢慢变淡，
原本一段真挚的感情却变质成为了彼此间的束缚，
悲剧收场。

我没有夸大其词，也没有信口雌黄，
这种情况在现实生活中信手拈来比比皆是。

或许，这样的爱情在我们的眼里可能算是一文不值，
或许，你会觉得，这些人不懂得如何去爱。
然而，对他们而言，这样的经历或许可悲，但他们得到的更多，
毕竟很多时候，很多事情都要经历过，才能体会得更深。

经历一次教训就要学一次乖。
没有人的一生会是完美的，终究会错过一些人，错过一些事。
或许，你错过的不一定错，你选择的也不一定对。
所能做的，就是好好地活在当下，好好地珍惜身边的人。
不要害怕自己的选择是错的，也不要质疑。
既然选择了，就要勇敢地爱下去，直到分开的那一天。
可能，是一辈子，也可能剩下 1 分钟，
但是这些，都会是永远的回忆……

坏人 - 方炯镔

2009-03-08T19:53:00.005+08:00

坏人  -  方炯镔

那 一扇車門 關出 我們的裂痕
一聲就震斷了回頭的路程

愛 無法均分 以後 就留給你們
也許用傷害結束 愛才更動人

容忍的人其實並不笨 只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫 祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人 也是個壞人
對我坦誠 只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人 也是個壞人
分得夠狠 你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛 一點不剩
也不忍 看戀人愛成路人

容忍的人其實並不笨 只是寧可對自己殘忍
既然愛不能恆溫 祝福就給你下一個人

你是好人 也是個壞人
對我坦誠 只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人 也是個壞人
分得夠狠 你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛 一點不剩
也不忍 看戀人愛成路人

三個人從不對等 總有個人必須犧牲
那永恆 就等他帶你完成

你是好人 也是個壞人
對我坦誠 只為了朝他狂奔
不能放任 所以放了
這點痛我還能忍

我是好人 也是個壞人
分得夠狠 你才有藉口轉身
寧願愛 一點不剩
也不忍 看戀人愛成路

寧願愛 一點不剩
也不忍 看戀人愛成 路人

或许有一天，在我回忆中剩下的，只是过去。
或许有一天，我会真正发现，原来一切，都不一样了。
但是，到那个时候，我还是我，你也还是你，
唯一即将离去的，将只是过去…… 过去的我。

对不起

2009-03-06T02:31:00.006+08:00

我又飙车了。对不起，我始终遵守不了承诺。

虽然只到了区区 160 ，但是似乎也是车子，和我的极限了。

生活的压力、人际关系的压力、成绩的压力，太重，

就好像压倒骆驼的最后一根稻草，我就这样地崩溃。

随着急速的车子、震耳的音乐，我嘶吼、咆哮着……

我…… 多久没这样了？

爱不疚林峰

收藏再眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑后能全然退后你开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到后或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然后就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我决非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背后去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不需真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我决非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手寄望你幸福什么都有
也许爱很深厚而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

忽然累了……

2009-03-04T20:44:00.009+08:00

刚刚去了瓦特的活动，没有待得很久。
放心，活动搞得不错，真的只是我自己的问题。
本来也没有打算待很久，只是没想到这么快而已。
朋友一定以为我提早回来读书了,可是，真的没有。
我只是静静地躺着，躺着，躺了好久好久。
可能，只是因为忽然……疲倦了。
似乎有些什么在刹那间 strike 在我的心口，感觉很不舒服，却又找不出来由。

随手一捉，拿到了刚刚乱丢在地上，瓦特活动的小册子。
其实，我真的觉得，他们自己做的曲，还有一些进步空间，但是有些歌的词倒真的写得还不错。
特别喜欢 Simply Band 的 "配角" , 这里指的是歌词。
我不懂音乐，所以对曲的好坏应该也无法下定论吧。

配角
曲 : simply
词 : simply

当每一次用心
撑着的朋友关系
保持着该有的距离
不打破你我见的间距

写每一天的日记
都有你的身影
占据着我
每一分每一秒的思绪
这场电影我是背景

爱你我却只能是个配角
再多的戏份我总轮不到
每一次看着你的好
来不及写逗号
早已经是句号

想你我还能够让谁知道
再多机会只能在旁围绕
你只会看见他的好
让自己做好
陪衬你的配角

这一出戏的情节
早已经都被设定好
在你需要的时候
把我肩膀让你靠
然后在眼睁睁
看你重回他怀抱

有些部分似乎有些赘口，不过整体来说，我很喜欢这首歌词。

现在正在和朋友聊天，如果大家还记得，他是以前我去台湾旅行的朋友。
其实也是很久没有联络了，毕竟年龄不同，生活圈子不一样，
有时候连沟通都是一种困难。

and h0r ... tht time we argueing ... suddenly my dad slap mii i hate ppl slap mii fucker then i take the besi wanna break all thing in home ... but cant ... my father too strong ... he hold tht besi ... i cant tarik it out

这是内容。放心，没有家暴，只是少年的叛逆期。
我不是一个好的聆听者，也不懂得怎样和别人说大道理。
所以，我只能支吾其词地回答着。
或许，改找个时间好好地练习我的辅导和谈话的技巧了吧……

麻木

2009-03-03T19:55:00.003+08:00

一位朋友问我：近况如何？
我无言。

说不忙，是骗人的，我忙死了。

可是若要说很忙却又说不太过去，毕竟我似乎已经麻木于这种生活了。

星期三，我有 kaunselling quiz , 还要 present 一个根本还没有准备好的 Com Sys Project.
星期四，DSP quiz ，而这已经是连续不知道第几个星期每个礼拜两个 DPS quiz 了 ....
星期五, Semicon test 2 , 而我却连 50% 都还没有准备好.
星期六, Kaunselling 的 project , 又要忙个整天。
下个星期三，Econ test ，我连动都还没有开始动。
更别提即将到来的 Industrial training ，我连落脚处都还找不到。

如果以前的我，应该急死了。
可是，不知道为什么，真的没有什么特别的感觉。
或许，这就是长大吧。

大人，真好 (?) ........

咖啡哲学

2009-03-02T19:23:00.004+08:00

《第一次的亲密接触》是我看过的第一个网路爱情故事。
作者蔡智恒是一个很厉害的网路写手。
身为一名工程师，痞子蔡没有细腻的文笔，写出来的故事却总能让我回味无穷。
尤其喜欢这本书男女主角第一次相遇的情景，
所以 po 了出来和没有看过的朋友分享分享，希望会让你们喜欢上痞子蔡的作品。

文摘自 : 《第一次的亲密接触》作者 : 痞子蔡

　　晚上七点半，这种时间来见从未见过面的人，是非常完美的。通常这时大家都已吃完晚饭，所以不必费神去思考到那儿吃的问题。不然光是决定吃什麽，就得耗去大半个小时。而且重点是，吃饭得花较多的钱。对我这种穷学生而言，“兵不血刃”是很重要的。既然约在麦当劳，那麽等会乾脆直接进去麦当劳。两杯可乐，一份薯条就可以打发。可乐还不必叫大杯的。而且也不用担心吃相是否难看的问题。记得阿泰有次和一个女孩子吃排餐，结果那女孩太紧张，刀子一切，整块牛排往阿泰脸上飞去。所以第一次见面最好别吃饭。如果一定要吃饭，也绝不能吃排餐。万一双方一言不合，才不会有生命的危险。「痞子...你来得真早..」

　　当我正在发呆时，有个女孩从背後轻轻拍了一下我的肩膀。虽然早已经有了心理准备，但我仍然被眼前的这位女孩所震惊。如果不是她的咖啡色穿着，和叫我的那一声痞子。我会以为她只是来问路的。在今天以前，我一直以为美女只存在於电视和电影中，或是在过马路时，匆匆地与你擦身而过。而她，真的是很美。

　　有些女孩的美丽，是因人而异。换言之，你认为美的，我未必赞同。但我肯定没有人会质疑这个女孩子的美丽。我没有很高的文学造诣，所以要形容一个非常美丽的女子时，就只有闭月羞花、沉鱼落雁、国色天香和倾国倾城之类的老套。只怪我是学工程的，总希望美丽是可以公式计算或用仪器测量。但美丽毕竟只是美丽。美丽是感性，而不是理性。在成大，故老相传着一句话：“自古红颜多薄命，成大女生万万岁”..如果一个女子的寿命真的跟她的美貌成反比的话，那麽轻舞飞扬一定很短命。这麽美丽的女子，是不应该和我的生活圈子有所交集。也许是所谓的“物极必反”吧！正因为我极度被她的美丽所震惊，所以我反而变得很平静。

　　『吃过饭了吧!?...我们进去麦当劳里面再聊..』
　　「痞子..你果然高明..这样不失为省钱的好方法..」

　　被她洞悉我的用心，我只好傻笑着装出一付无辜的样子。看在她这麽美丽的份上，可乐只好点大杯的，薯条也叫了两份。

　　「痞子..这次你请我..下次我让你请..」

开玩笑，我当然听得出来她在占我便宜。但我高兴的是，她说了“下次”。那表示还会有下次。我不由得感到一股兴奋。

　　「痞子..你信教吗？..我是虔诚的基督徒，不介意我祷告吧！..」
　　『我是拿香拜拜的..不算信教..但我可以陪你祷告..』
　　「痞子..你不要学梁咏琪的广告说：“希望世界和平”..」
　　『当然不会..我要为我皮包中阵亡的一百元钞票祈祷..希望它能安息..』
　　「呵呵...痞子..你真的是很小气..」

　　我第一次听见她的笑声，清清脆脆的，像炸得酥脆的麦当劳薯条。

　　「痞子..你看到我後..是不是很失望呢？..」

　　看到美女如果还会失望，那看到一般女孩不就绝望得想跳楼？..

　　『你为什麽会觉得我该失望？..』
　　「因为我跟你说过我长得不可爱ㄚ！..所以你看到我後..一定很失望..」

　　原来她拐弯抹角地，就是想暗示说她长得其实是很可爱的。

　　『那为什麽你要骗我说你长得并不可爱呢？..』
　　「痞子..我只说我不可爱..我可没说我不漂亮..」

　　这小姑娘说话的调调竟然跟我好像。只可惜她太漂亮，不然当个痞子一定绰绰有馀。

　　「痞子..你也长得很斯文ㄚ！..不像你形容地那样不堪入目..」

　　斯文？这种形容词其实是很混的。

　　对很多女孩子而言，斯文的意思跟呆滞是没什麽两样的。我开始打量着坐在我面前的这位美丽的女孩。美丽其实是一种很含糊的形容词...因为美丽是有很多种的。也许像冷若冰霜的小龙女；也许像清新脱俗的王语嫣。也许像天真无邪的香香公主；也许像刁蛮任性的赵敏。也许像聪慧狡黠的黄蓉；也许像情深义重的任盈盈。但她都不像。

　　幸好她都不像，所以她不是小说中的人物。她属於现实的生活。第一眼看到她时，我就被她的脸孔勾去了两魂，被她的声音夺走了六魄。只剩下一魂一魄的我，根本来不及看清楚她身材的高矮胖瘦。如今我终於可以仔细地端详她的一切。她很瘦，然而并非是弱不禁风的那种。

　　她的肤色很白...由於我没看过雪，因此也不敢用“雪白”这种形容词。但因为她穿着一身咖啡色，於是让我联想到鲜奶油。所以她就像是一杯香浓的咖啡。她现在坐着，我无法判断她的身高。不过刚刚在点餐时，我看着她的眼睛，视线的俯角约20度..我们六只眼睛（我有四只）的距离约20公分..所以我和她身高的差异约=20*tan20度=7.3。我171...因此她约164..至於她的头发，超过肩膀10公分，虽还不到腰，但也算是很长了。等等...她不是说头发已经挑染成咖啡色了...为何还是乌黑亮丽？

　　『你的头发很黑ㄚ！..那里有挑染成咖啡色的呢？..』
　　「痞子..挑染也者，挑几根头发来染一染是也..因为我觉得好玩..

　　所以我自己染了几根头发来意思意思..你觉得好看吗？..」

　　她把头发轻轻拨到胸前，然後指给我看..

　　的确是“万黑丛中一点咖啡”。
　　而且美女毕竟是美女，连随手拨弄头发的仪态也是非常撩人。

　　『当然好看..你即使理光头，也是一样明动人..』
　　「呵呵..痞子..别太夸奖我..我会骄傲的..」

　　我又听见了她的笑声。

　　古人常用“黄莺出谷”和“乳燕归巢”来形容声音的甜美。

　　但这两种鸟叫声我都没听过，所以用来形容她的声音是不科学的。还是脆而不腻的麦当劳薯条比较贴切。她的笑声，就像沾了蕃茄酱的薯条，清脆中带点酸甜。

　　『你为何会偏爱咖啡色呢？..』
　　「因为我很喜欢喝咖啡ㄚ！..我最爱喝的就是曼巴咖啡..」
　　『我也常常喝咖啡..但我不懂“曼巴”是什麽？..』
　　「曼巴就是曼特宁咖啡加巴西咖啡嘛！..笨痞子..」
　　『哦..原来如此..那蓝山咖啡加巴西咖啡不就叫做“蓝巴”？..』
　　「呵呵..痞子..你在美女面前也敢这麽痞..我不禁要赞赏你的勇气..」
　　『你穿着一身咖啡色..不会觉得很奇怪吗？..』

这是我最大的疑问。如果不知道谜底，我一定会睡不着觉。总不至於爱喝咖啡就得穿一身咖啡色吧!?..如果照这种逻辑，那爱喝西瓜汁就得一身红；爱喝绿茶就得一身绿...那爱喝汽水的，不就什麽颜色的衣服都不用穿了？

　　「痞子...你听过“咖啡哲学”吧!?..」
　　『这是一家连锁咖啡店..我当然听过..』
　　「此哲学非彼哲学也...我的穿着就是一套咖啡哲学..阁下想听吗？..」
　　『有...有话请讲...在下愿闻其详..』

　　差点忘了对方是个美女，赶紧把“有屁快放”吃到肚子里..

　　「即使全是咖啡..也会因烘焙技巧和香、甘、醇、苦、酸的口感而有差异..
　　　我的鞋袜颜色很深，像是重度烘焙的炭烧咖啡...焦、苦不带酸..
　　　小喇叭裤颜色稍浅，像是风味独特的摩卡咖啡...酸味较强..
　　　毛线衣的颜色更浅，像是柔顺细腻的蓝山咖啡...香醇精致..
　　　而我背包的颜色内深外浅，并点缀着装饰品，则像是Cappuccino咖啡..
　　　表面浮上新鲜牛奶，并撒上迷人的肉桂粉...既甘醇甜美却又浓郁强烈..」

　　我愣了半晌，说不出话来。

　　我不禁再次打量着坐在我面前的这位美丽的女孩。在今晚以前，她只不过是网路上的一个游魂而已。只有ID，没有血肉。如今她却活生生地坐在我面前，跟我说话，对我微笑，揭我疮疤?或者应该说是打从在麦当劳门口见到她时，我就已经在作梦了。只是现在我才发觉是在梦境里。

　　「呵呵..痞子..你又当机了吗？..你idle了好久..」

　　又不是在网路上，当什麽机？..不过她的笑声倒是又把我拉回了现实。

　　『我在思考一个合适的形容词来赞美你的冰雪聪明..』
　　「狗腿也没有用！..轮到你说你一身蓝色的原因..不然你就要认输..」
　　认输？..开什麽玩笑，蔡某人的字典里没有这两个字。
　　蓝色的确是我的最爱，但怎麽掰呢？
　　她刚刚的那套“咖啡哲学”掰得真好，看来她的智商不逊於她的外表。
　　既然她以哲学为题，那我乾脆用力学接招吧！
　　「因为我念流体力学，而水流通常是蓝色的，所以我喜欢蓝色...」
　　『然後呢？..Mr.痞子...不要太逞强！..输给美女又不是件丢脸的事..而且“英雄难过美人关”..不是吗？..』

　　她轻轻咬着吸管，似笑非笑地看着我..这招够毒...如果我过了这关，就表示我不是英雄；但过不了这关，纵然是英雄，也只是个认输的英雄。管他的..反正我只是个痞子，又不是什麽英雄好汉..

　　「即使全是水流..也会因天候状况和冷、热、深、浅、脏的环境而有差异..
　　　我的鞋袜颜色很深，像是太平洋的海水...深沉忧郁..
　　　牛仔裤颜色稍浅，又有点泛白，像漂着冰山的北极海水...阴冷诡谲..
　　　衬衫的颜色更浅，像是室内游泳池的池水...清澈明亮..
　　　而我书包的颜色外深内浅，并有深绿的背带，就像是澄清湖的湖水..
　　　表面浮上几尾活鱼，并有两岸杨柳的倒影...既活泼生动却又幽静典雅..」
　　　这次轮到她当机了。

　　看到她也是很仔细地打量着我，我不禁怀疑她是否也觉得在作梦？但我相信我的外表是不足以让她产生作梦的感觉。即使她也同时在作梦，我仍然有把握我的梦会比她的梦甜美。

　　「呵呵..痞子..算你过关了..」
　　『过关有奖品吗？..要不然奖金也可以..』
　　「当然有奖品ㄚ！..我不是正在对你微笑吗？..」
　　『这的确是最好的奖品..但太贵重了..我也笑几个还你..』
　　「痞子..美女才能一笑倾城..你笑的话，可能只会倾掉我手中的这杯可乐..」
　　※＆＠＃☆....
　　「痞子..我念外文..你呢？..」
　　『弟本布衣，就读於水利..全成绩於系上，不求闻达於网路..』
　　「痞子..你干嘛要学诸葛亮的“出师表”？..」
　　『我以为这样会使我看起来好像比较有学问..』
　　「干嘛还好像..你本来就很有学问ㄚ！..」

　　没想到她竟开始学起我说话的语气..但同样一句很机车的话，为什麽由她说来却令人如此舒服？

　　「痞子..我3月15出生，是双鱼座..你呢？..」
　　『我11月13出生，是天蝎座..问这干嘛？..』
　　「我只想知道我们合不合嘛！..」
　　『天底下没有不合的星座..只有不合的人..』
　　「痞子..够酷的回答..让我们为这句话痛快地乾一杯吧！..」

　　她举起盛着可乐的杯子，学着武侠小说的人物，作势要乾杯...看到一个活泼可爱的女孩子，学男人装豪迈，是件很好玩的事。所以我也举起同样盛着可乐的杯子，与她乾杯。也因此我碰到了她的手指。大概是因为可乐的关系吧！..她的手指异常冰冷。这是我第一次接触到她。然後在我脑海里闪过的，是“亲密”两个字。

　　为什麽是“亲密”？..而不是“亲蜜”？蜜者，甜蜜也。..密者，秘密也。如果每个人的内心，都像是锁了很多秘密的仓库。那麽如果你够幸运的话，在你一生当中，你会碰到几个握有可以打开你内心仓库的钥匙。但很多人终其一生，内心的仓库却始终未曾被开启。而当我接触到她冰冷的手指时，我发觉那是把钥匙。一把开启我内心仓库的钥匙...

　「痞子..那你平常做何消遣？..」
　　『除了念书外..大概就是电视电影和武侠小说而已..』
　　「你都看那种电影？..」
　　『我最爱看A片..』
　　「痞子..美女也是人的..」
　　『姑娘误会了...A片也者..American片是也..A片是简称..』
　　「既然你这麽说..那我们下次一起去看A片吧！..」
　　大概她的音量有点大..所以隔壁桌的一对男女讶异地望着我们..
　　而她也自觉失了言..耸了耸肩膀..吐了吐舌头..
　　「痞子..都是你害的..」
　　真是的..自己眼睛斜还怪桌子歪..
　　「那你都不听音乐会？..或歌剧、舞台剧之类的？..美术展也不看？..」
　　『听音乐会我会想睡觉..歌剧和舞台剧我又看不懂..美术展除非是裸女图，不然我也不看..而且如果要看裸女，PLAYBOY和PENTHOUSE里多的是..既写实又逼真..何必去看别人用画的..』
　　「痞子..你真老实..你不怕你这样说我会觉得你没水准？..」
　　『子曰：“知之为知之，不知为不知，是知也！”..

　　不懂就不懂..干嘛要装懂？..

　　更何况既然说是消遣..当然愈轻松愈好..又不是要用来提高自己的水准..』
　　「痞子..你真的是所谓的“一言九顶”...我讲一句..你顶九句..」
　　『哦..那我应该如何？..』
　　「你应该开始学着欣赏音乐会..还有歌剧和舞台剧..以及美术展..」
　　『干嘛？..』
　　「这样我下次才有伴可以陪我去看ㄚ！..」

　　会的..为了你，我会学习的。我在心里这麽告诉我自己...

　　「痞子..我们下次也一起喝咖啡..好吗？..」
　　『等等...你今天说了很多“下次”..那下次我们到底是吃饭？..看A片？..听音乐会？..看歌剧舞台剧或美术展？..还是喝咖啡？..』
　　「呵呵..对了..我怎麽也学李登辉一样乱开支票...这样吧！..让你选..」
　　『单选题还是复选题？..』
　　「痞子..你想得美唷！..只能选一样..」
　　『那看A片好了..』
　　「痞子..你应该选择听音乐会的..因为听完音乐会後..我会想喝杯咖啡..喝完咖啡後精神很好..就会想看场电影..看完电影後肚子饿了..就会想吃饭...唉！..我实在为你觉得相当惋惜..」

　　怎麽会惋惜？..我倒觉得很庆幸..
　　不然一下子做了这麽多事..我皮包里的叁军将士不就全军覆没了？..

　　「哇！..惨了..快12点了..我得赶快走人了..」

　　她看一下手表，然後叫了起来..

　　『你该不会住在学校宿舍吧!?..如果是的话..已经超过11点半了..』
　　「我在外面租房子..所以不担心这个..」
　　『那你担心什麽？..担心我会变狼人？..今晚又不是满月..』
　　「痞子..“仙履奇缘”里的灰姑娘到了午夜12点..是会变回原形的..」
　　『那没关系..你留下一只鞋子..我自然会去找你..』
　　「既然你这麽说..那我只好...」

　　她竟然真的弯下身去...不过她却是把鞋带绑得更紧一点..推开了麦当劳大门，午夜的大学路，变得格外冷清..

　　『你住那？..我送你..』
　　「就在隔壁的胜利路而已..很近..」

　　走着走着..她在一辆脚踏车前停了下来..不会吧!?...连脚踏车也是咖啡色的！..

　　「咖啡色的车身..白色的座垫..像是温合的法式牛奶咖啡..这是最适合形容柔顺浪漫的双鱼座个性的咖啡了..痞子..轮到你ㄠ了..」

　　她竟然还留这麽一手..难怪人家说“最毒妇人心”。不过..天助我也..因为我的机车是一辆老旧破烂的蓝色野狼。『蓝色的油缸..黑色的座垫..像是漂满油污的高雄港海水..这是最适合形容外表凉薄内心深情的天蝎座个性的水了..』
　　「痞子..恭喜你..你可以正式开始约我了..」

　　到了她家楼下..她突然说出这句让我感到晴天霹雳的话..

　　“晴天霹雳”原本是不好的形容词..但因为我爱雨天，所以霹雳一下反而好。

咖啡哲学，是个很有趣的名词，对于每一人来说。
至少，对我而言，我对咖啡哲学又有另一番的鄙见。
泡杯好的咖啡，就像做人一样的难。

太多咖啡粉，咖啡太苦；太少，却又嫌淡。
太多糖会太甜，太多奶精会腻。
水太热会让人难以下咽，不够热却又享受不了一杯热腾腾的咖啡。

或许，一切都应该像现在一样，刚刚好就好吧…… =)

Random post

2009-03-01T04:21:00.006+08:00

Suddenly found that, I actually having many photos in my computer that I never post, keeping in a folder name " 2009 - this and that" . Memanglarrr "this and that", because maybe just minor minor thing in life har... I dunno how to blog long long larrr...

Anyway, since I'm so sleepy that I cant even study Semicon now, I'll just have some random post here ~

Woops.. Yes, I'm doing facial... Right before CNY ^^

And... Guess what are we doing ..... ?

aHA !!! WAR GAME !!! V Shooting paint ball larrr ... And what really amazing is ... THE PAINT BALL COURT was @ MUAR !!! Belif it anot , Muar actually got such place le !! We went for paint ball during chinese new year ( chu4 if not mistaken) ... Just I forgot to post the photos up.. xD

Well.. The court was not really that big ... Maybe just slightly larger than basketball court... but was really fun .... only RM25 for court le , including the gun (they call it "marker" here if not mistaken, use to "mark" people with paint mar .. ) , a vest and a safety mask.

MARKER !! Pain bila kena shoot tau ? Itulah sebab panggil "Pain Ball" !!

Our "bullet" for the "marker".. can call it "Mark" ? LOL !! Expensive le ... 1 bag = 500 bullets = RM50 ... 1 bullet Rm0.10 tau ? But we newbie , a while shoot shoot then die liaw, so 2 person share 1 pack = RM25 only lo....

My suggestion for newbies : Sharing bullet always best larrr..... within 30 shoots per round you mostly die liaw geh.. wakKakaka....

The bullet ... Actually they say the bullet can eat one le.... BUt is daMn bitter bitter bitter like medicine .... I dunno o... It doesn't look delicious to me , so I never try xD

OWh this one ..... VZ's birthday !! Also quite long ago liaw, forgot to post sial.... Recently always forgot thing haiz..... We went to "somewhere-I-dunno-where" in Kajang , which has a really nice scenery there..... The food was ok , but wasn't that enjoy that day because really too many people liaw... Have to wait this wait that, when reach I already starve til can die liaw ... TT

Say hi !! Our EE gang + CE gang + Bing Yao's GF + VZ's .. erm.. good friend(?)

and.... Happy very belated 22nd birthday to VZ o !! Don't forgot this year is my 21st birthday .... I WANT PRESENT !!!!!! xD

This is real sohai lol, taken during last Monday... and after Min go and upload this photo onto his facebook, damn many discussion sial ... Me and lpy really innocent ... T.T ...

OK what.... He wear formal only mar.. Although is not as nice as me and lpy, but I think really only face's problem lar.. Don't blame the shirt....
p.s. : Which one among us paling ada taste ? =)

Then last Weds .... Also funny... suddenly Min called and I went his house to fried Hash Brown. Actually is not no reason geh..... Because next week our Kaunselling Dan Kerja Social is raising fund for our activity mar .. So we selling Hash Brown etc in COE food court... but ... but... but... I don't even know how to fried an egg well.... Nevermind, dunno ma learn lo.... I got friend who pandai memasak marrr....

Alright, wasn't really that success I guess ... Anyway , Hash Brown really nice man !! Next week remember come COE food court support us ya !!

Ping Yew's duty hour is :
Monday : 9 am - 12 am , 2pm and 3 pm

Me, Min and Wei Liang's duty hour is :
Monday : 12pm - 1pm
Tuesday : 3pm - 5pm
Thursday : 1pm - 3pm

But the booth is open "almost" whole day lar.. Morning til evening, if pass by then support support our activity lo =)

And lastly.... FRESH PHOTO HERE !!! Taken yesterday morning... Went for dim sum breakfast @ Cheras there.... Went there around 6 am ... Sienz lo, whole nite din sleep, I look almost like Shy Lin liaw ... ( erps.. :X )

Anyway, really love chinese tea ... Although we only bancuh the cheapest "hiong pin"..

The porridge here used to be very nice ... but today one is a little bit ... don't know how to say ... but was quite dissapointing lo..... Haiz.. =(
Anyway, had lots of great dim sum... So still ok lar..... I really love their "wu kok" (yam dumpling) and sesame ball with lotus paste inside... Damn nice lorr.... "Siu Mai"(pork dumpling) was ok , but their "har gao"(prawn dumpling) really not my cup of tea ...

Hey !! I really LOVE this man !! Although people say til damn so awful , but I think ok mar... It's like.... mua chi with some filling inside .... Maybe different people different taste lo....

K lar.. I really too lame only posting all these wu liao(lame) photos ...

Gonna sleep le ~~ Nitez everyone ^^

忧郁

2009-02-23T23:50:00.005+08:00

下雨天，难免会让人感到多愁善感……
感觉，好忧郁哦……

上个周末去了自己即将 industrial training 的地方，
还真是个恐怖的经历。
四周一片荒芜，几乎都是马来甘榜，是不是还得停车让牛过马路。
最靠近的小镇叫 Masjid Tanah ，其实，我觉得用 “市集” 来形容显得更贴切。
距离马六甲大概 40 分钟，回到麻坡大概 1 小时半，回 KL 大概 1 小时 45 分钟。
和我一起去 training 的朋友又是显到爆的那种型……
还没开始 industrial training, 一种恐惧已不自决地油然而生。
虽然说真的应该会学到很多东西，allowance 也还算很高，
可是……
总之，我实在实在实在很不期待 industrial training ,
只希望眼睛闭一闭，很快就过去吧……

很大很大的Power PLant

就是这里啦！！里面好与像好吵 .....

有海耶！！真是 “孤独老人与海” ....

写到这里，我更忧郁了……好坎坷的 industrial training life ...
呜呜... T.T ...

p.s. : 最近好不得空 update blog , 因为在拼着一个十万字的作文 (?) ，虽然我觉得自己只能够写 1/10 ，不过还是得拼，不然可能下次 upload 的就是我生吞百元大钞的 video 了.....

Life is never simple ...

2009-02-11T22:51:00.003+08:00

Feeling very tired recently..
that I don't even have time to update my blog ....

Quiz... Test... assignment.. project.... quiz lagi.... quiz.... quiz... project...
Fcuk ... I just want a real good rest !!
I don't want to dream of incomplete assignments !!
I don't want to dream of low mark quizzes !!!
I don't want to fcuking dream of terrible test result !!!

How I wish I could just run away from all these things..
Can watch drama ..... play PSP ... dota .... hang around with friends...
Life.. is never simple ~